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11 mos ago
okay, meds crisis averted but still slow while I work on getting my routine back to normal ^w^
12 mos ago
MIA for another week, pharmacy once again doesn't have my meds ready and without them I can barely function so from tomorrow onwards I'm gonna be away while I try and get it sorted
1 yr ago
hey brain, if you're gonna make me Stop Drawing bc "You NEED me to Google Something IMMEDIATELY" then I will flip a chair if you "forget uwu" once I open the Google tab. smh /lh
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1 yr ago
"What's the kindest way to say, you took away my friend?" | Lost a pet yesterday, so will be taking an extended leave of absence for a bit while I grieve. I will be back ofc, just...need some time ;-;
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1 yr ago
@leopard yeah that's just a bot that managed to wiggle through the spam filter dw, staff will whack em with the banhammer when they get a chance. happens every so often lol

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Elven | AFAB Genderqueer (She/Ve/They) | 25+ | {{ Polyam Aego Lesbian }}

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Baldur's Gate 3
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Draconis Memoria series
ARK: Survival Evolved and/or Jurrassic Park/World, Dinosaurs in general are also always good! <3
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Warrior Cats (pretty much exclusively FanClans/OCs or an AU where canon characters are long gone)
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Watership Down


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Somewhat of a lore bomb here too I guess? haha hopefully I fleshed out just enough of it and didn't do too little or too much ;w; feel free to add or change anything of course!
Hope I wasn't too OoC for Renso either, he seemed like the "silent but mysterious" type from what we've seen of him so far so I tried to stick with that.

Struggled a bit with expressing the philosophy part of it but think this is a good start? Straight up stole the mantra thing from Chirrut in Rogue One but it was just so perfectly worded for what they believe in now that I had to use it XD
Renso stood again and beckoned them to the center of the room, the duo taking up positions as Chwuq muscled her way to lie down between them. Aria could feel the tomb beast’s muscles quivering in her flanks with each minute growl or grunt she emitted, her crimson gaze not leaving Renso as the Sith Master exhaled softly and shut his eyes. Aria and Yerbol did the same, slowing their breathing rates and allowing the bond that existed between them to open up fully.

The images Renso showed them were horrifying enough to make Aria break out in a cold sweat, her dark eyes flying open at around the same time that the two men both surfaced from the visions themselves. She could feel Yerbol’s gut churning almost as if it were her own and was silently grateful that she had a strong stomach due to growing up on Korriban.
“You...you experimented on them.” Aria pointed out, trying to keep the skepticism out of her tone so as not to anger the ancient Sith. “...you could hardly expect them NOT to get angry as Force about it…” though to go down the full route of mass genocide as Bracknell had attempted before...that of course, was overkill. Renso made no initial acknowledgement of her comment, and instead began to explain why he had called them all the way out here to Wild Space again, imploring them to allow him to tutor them so that they could pass on the teachings to others in known space.
She could feel his guilt, his desperation to repair the mistakes he had made before his time ran out, which Renso was painfully (literally) aware was drawing closer with each passing day, his contempt at himself for not being able to see past his own youthful ignorance to prevent all of this from occurring…

Aria and Yerbol were his LAST chance to put things right before he had no physical grasp on the world any longer. As her partner looked towards her and asked her opinion, she let out a sigh of her own:
“...We have to help him.” shaking her head, Aria added. “It’s not like we’d be going against our beliefs or what we learnt working together to stop Bracknell, so why not?”
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Renso’s teaching methods were...intensive, his urgency came across in the way he barked instruction at them every time they made a mistake or did not grasp a concept as quickly as he had hoped they would. Despite being in such close proximity to the Sith, which meant that their connection to him through the Force bond should have felt stronger than before, the link seemed to grow weaker with each passing day. It didn’t take them long to figure out why. He was dying. Somehow, that spurred them on to work even harder to try and soak up every bit of knowledge the Sith alien could offer them. They HAD to. They would be the only ones left in the galaxy, once he was gone, that would remember it…

Their lightsaber skills he polished even further, correcting errors in their footwork and berating them for sloppiness of form:
“Are you trying to get your own hand sliced off? Put your grip backwards like that again and I’ll start zapping your wrists with lightning until I’ve trained you out of it!” he had scolded Aria, who thought he was simply over-exaggerating, and paid the warning no mind until she had in fact received a sharp shock to both wrists during the next morning’s scheduled work through of lightsaber techniques.
When she glared at him and made a vehement protest to the treatment (which was somewhat backed up by a flustered Yerbol), Renso simply grinned back at them and proclaimed:
“I warned you.”
In retort, Aria vehemently protested that Roan had used a very similar grip and never come up short before (until the duel with Bracknell, of course…).
“Well, your father’s not here now, is he? Not even Shien Masters use the reverse grip anymore because is IS flawed. I’m trying to teach you a lesson, you’d do well to stop being stubborn and follow it.” she had sighed and let him off for the snide comment because he was getting frail and he was doing his best to teach them as patiently as he could.

Their Force combat skills he expanded upon vastly. Though they had received quite extensive training from Roan and Voldon in particular during their short training sessions on Zinuthra, even those techniques were nothing compared to the vast trove of knowledge that Renso had to impart to them. Not only did he tutor them in ways to sharpen their current skills: such as properly directing her previously uncontrolled Force screams to make them even MORE effective (Force help anybody who ever tried to win an argument with either of them by the end of it!), how to channel the flows of the Force even better to give them even MORE speed or strength, better ways to work together as a team to do various things including remaining unseen if they so wished, or how to stretch their senses out further and to be aware of the life forms moving around them even if they were further away (to hopefully avoid any more Xiis ambushing them again!); but Renso also imparted NEW techniques to them that were so old and long-forgotten that no other Master alive would have any inkling of them. To Yerbol he taught techniques even Aria admitted she didn’t fully comprehend, something to do with severing or lessening a being’s connection to the Force, something like simulating the effect that strong sedative drugs had on a person, and sharpened the barrier ability he had already picked up which they had used to defeat Bracknell. To Aria, he taught the ability to use her powerful emotions to fuel her fighting strategies, to allow determination and passion to fuel her when her own stamina seemed to be failing or her muscles ached so much she doubted they could move another inch. She had attempted such techniques before under Roan and Cheriss’ urging but had found the process altogether unachievable, but with Renso’s methods….this could become something she could use.

On the fourth day, Chwuq had coaxed Taral off the ship and persuaded him to join them once again, the two Tuk’ata watching the training sessions with quiet curiosity from the sidelines until they became bored and leapt between teacher and student to break the intense concentration and initiate some form of play (which usually involved snatching Renso’s lightsaber and running off with it...they seemed to delight in testing their boundaries with the Sith alien). Renso had at first been quite annoyed with the whole display but after a further forty eight hours had passed he was more interested in studying them at closer quarters. The Tuk’ata had been hesitant to approach the powerful being, their ability to sense his strength in the Force warning them that he was even more powerful than Roan had been, and for that reason something to be feared.
“They’re the last of their kind, too.” Aria murmured one evening when Renso had enquired what the dogs were. “Beasts that prowled the tombs on Korriban, my father said they must have been there when your people still populated the planet. They were with him when the planet blew up, so they survived.” she shrugged. “We haven’t found any others…”
Renso smiled indulgently as he watched Taral snuffling at a knot of fur between Chwuq’s shoulderblades.
“Well, perhaps there may still be more Tuk’ata in the galaxy yet.” She hadn’t grasped what he was implying at first, the realization only dawning on her after the next days’ training session.
Aria had attempted to encourage Chwuq and Taral closer by suggesting that she and Yerbol sit on either side of Renso during mealtimes, though the two dogs would eye any food offerings held out towards them by any of the trio with wary mistrust before slinking off to hunt for their own food. At the end of the first week, they had returned carrying specimens of the strange blue-feathered birds Aria and Yerbol had seen on Zinuthra before. As had become habit, Taral had nudged the dead bird with the end of his muzzle and looked in their direction, only wolfing it down after Aria and Yerbol both insisted that they had eaten more than enough of their own meal already. Chwuq, however, had dropped her kill directly in Renso’s lap and sunk down to lie at the Sith Master’s feet, ears perked upwards as she stared intently at him until Renso had cleared his throat uncomfortably.
Stifling laughter, Aria sniggered:
“...She’s going to be VERY upset if you don’t eat that. You should feel honoured, Master, they don’t hunt for people outside their pack.”
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The final lessons Renso taught the duo were to understand the philosophies he had sharpened in his years of seclusion and teaching others like Bracknell and Soto. Even though they had already begun to put them into practise by working as a team despite their initial differences, there was much that they had to work to further understand. Most importantly, he stressed a focus on the FORCE itself rather than trying to segregate it into teachings of “Light” and “Dark”. So he would tell them:
“The Force must be perfectly balanced or it could not exist. That is why there IS a Light and a Dark, because without one the other would have no meaning and no purpose. The codes of honour that your former Orders followed were twisted representations of it’s true nature at best. Because both vehemently denied the existence of the other. What I want you to make sure, when I am gone, is that the others you teach understand this concept of balance that you have learned from me.”
They were able to comprehend what he was saying only because they had both chosen to cast aside their differences at the moment their Force bond had formed on Quensu and to acknowledge that differing opinions didn’t have to be viewed as WRONG just because they were different. Renso kept stressing the importance of the Force, to let it guide one’s actions and to use it in a way that was natural and almost primal, without fearing of straying too far along one part of its spectrum. “Any part of the Force can be a tool to aid you when you know how to use it. You have begun to understand this and now you must teach it to others.” he urged the duo.
Ensuring they could pass that knowledge on would be much more difficult; trying to construct some kind of mantra that acknowledged both approaches without being too confusing seemed impossible to Aria, though Renso had implored patience and insisted that they meditate on the matter and the answer would come to them. In the end, it turned out that they had simply been focusing TOO much on keeping the written expression of the philosophy exactly the same as the previous codes had been, and not enough on presenting it in a way that would echo the simplicity of what they hoped to teach:

The Force is all things, and I am the Force.

The phrase had come to the pair suddenly in the middle of a meditation session, they hadn’t been able to explain how they had both thought of it in unison but had agreed that it clicked and would serve the purpose. Neither Aria nor Yerbol could confirm whether Renso had had anything to do with the phrase’s appearance and if they asked the Sith would simply smile indulgently and reply in some cryptic phrase that insisted he “would do no such thing”.

Train. Eat. Settle Chwuq and Taral down. Sleep. Train some more. It became a continuous cycle that went on for fourteen days, Renso seeming more frail each time they rose from a short period of rest to return to their training. The days blurred into one another until it became hard to distinguish where one started and the other began. They became so focused on their learning that they almost didn’t notice their tutor’s fatigue, until on the last day he became so weak he could hardly rise from his meditation to speak with them again….
Montage it is, then! I shall work it in! :P

Hooray for philosophicalness! Definitely something they'd need if they're going to become Masters of the Force and pioneers of Renso's perfected philosophies c: since they didn't get awful much of that from Roan (though I imagine he tried very hard, bless his cottons haha) before he died xD
Ohh maaaan, I got chills reading those visions/flashbacks O_O

I actually really, really feel for Renso now too D': Poor guy, realising a moment too late that he messed up and just trying to put it right...

A couple weeks sounds good (dunno if the poor dude would last much longer haha) xD How should we proceed with that, do we want to play it out in 'real time' or do you want me to start like a time-skip montage type thing on the end of my next post? c:
Haha no worries, no rush! XD
Hahaha! Good news is it seems to have stabilised itself now so hopefully it stays that way! XD

Ooohhh sweeeet I shall be eagerly awaiting what he has to reveal! XD
I really love when people express interest in a roleplay within which the GM clearly states exceptional commitment is required, and then half of them flat out disappear.

Only for you to see them asking days later how come all their RPs seem to die...

Simply fantastic.



Uh wrong thread bud, you want the role play batching thread over this way: roleplayerguild.com/topics/49973-lets-.. XD
Aria had frowned in concern as he mentioned the bruising, rolling up her own sleeves to check her wrists. Sure enough, they too sported angry purple fingers shaped bruises. “Tell me about it...I thought she was gonna break my wrists.” her concern for the state of his ribs meant she took little notice of his jest at how hard she could hit, instead asking: “Are you sure your ribs aren't broken? Cause we might need to think about getting you back to a kolto tank as soon as we're done with Renso…”
Force forbid they should ignore it and a broken bone end up puncturing his lung or….STOP IT. She knew it was her brain catastrophising and tried to push the terrifying thought it had brought aside, squeezing his hand in return as she commented on some of the questions he raised. “ ‘Xiis’. That's what the woman said to me. I don't know if that's someone's name or a species...I guess we'll have to ask Renso.” rising from her chair, she nodded gratefully and slipped off to shower and change quickly as Yerbol brought them back down again
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They had to pick their way through a vast expanse of horrible, swampy ground to get off the edge of the loading ramp. It wouldn't get any better the further away they went in search of Renso with only one dog in town (Taral had taken one look outside, tucked his tail between his legs and cowered refusing to leave the ship. She hadn't taken that as a good sign, even if he was slightly less brutish than his mate he still wasn't one to startle easily). With Renso's clue in mind it didn't take them long to find the pillars that stuck out like sore thumbs from the rest of the landscape.
“Well, I'd bet it's a tomb alright.” Aria chuckled wryly, giving him a reassuring pat on the shoulder before they ventured forward into the cave, Yerbol conjouring another of the blue light orbs to illuminate the path in front of them.
“You've got to teach me how to do that sometime.” she murmured, breaking the eerie silence that seemed to permeate the entire tomb but for their footsteps and their breath. “How deep do you think this thing goes?”
Well, it WAS a tomb after all….

It could have been only a few minutes later, or closer to a whole hour (Aria lost all concept of how much time had passed as they trudged through the cold stone passageways) before they glimpsed a dim orange-ish light from up ahead, the narrow tunnel they had been in opening out into a chamber with a cavernous ceiling. She couldn't begin to think what it would have been used for. Some kind of rite to put the spirits of those buried in the tombs to rest? She shuddered at the thought.

Her attention however would be immediately drawn to the frail figure perched against the stone slab in the middle of the room. He looked frail, and old. Very old. His skin closer to sickly pinkish-grey in tint than the vibrant red they had witnessed in the mysterious projections in Quensu’s temple, and well weathered with age; the tentacle projections sagging so far down on his chin and eyebrows that it looked as if they would fall right off his face at any moment, a few whispy white strands were all that was left of hair on his otherwise gleaming, bare skull. The yellow eyes which may have at one point been sharp and alert had become slightly sunken back in their sockets, glassed over with pain and yet still reflecting many years of hard-learned wisdom. And very, very much alive.
Chwuq’s hackles bristled, the Tuk'ata's lips peeling back to show her glistening white teeth as she studied the man with wary eyes.
“Power bad.”
“We don’t know he's bad.” Aria reasoned, patting her head soothingly as the trio advanced closer in unison. “He helped us before…”
“You're Renso?” It was nerves really that had prompted it to come out as a question, or perhaps surprise when she had been expecting that they would be conversing with a Force spirit rather than a several several-thousand-year-old (from what they could infer of Roan's previous studies of the dates and lore they had uncovered) man. Or alien. Or whatever. How could ANYONE physically live that long, Force sensitive or not?! The question stuck in her throat despite her desperation to voice it out loud.
A thin smile cracked further wrinkles into the alien’s face that made Aria worry it might shatter from the effort.
The familiar voice that had spoken through the bond before confirmed what the duo had already known for themselves.
“It's good to finally meet you both in person. I had worried you would not arrive in time.”
“We were...delayed.” Aria apologised, taking another step forward despite an anxious grunt from Chwuq.
“Yes, so I was aware. I can feel their mark on you already.”
“Mark?” she echoed. Roan had said the same thing about the True Sith after picking up the duo from Manaan nearly a year ago. “What mark?”
“Powerful beings, or beings strong in negative emotions that draw heavily on the dark side, leave a Force signature, an imprint, behind on everything that they come into contact with. Rock, tree, animal, person.”
“The creatures we encountered can use the Force?” Aria frowned in confusion. “But we couldn't feel anything...we didn't even know they were there until they jumped out at us.”
“Perhaps some of them can, we're not sure.” Renso answered. “Most of them don't. But they don't have to be Force sensitive to leave echoes in the Force. The same way that it shifts when things die, so it can change when you come into contact with strong presences. And they have grown very strong in the years that they spent festering their hate.” the old Master sighed, shaking his head slowly. “Yes, there is much hate in them…”
“Why?” Aria asked carefully.
Renso was silent.


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Hehe I figured with the whole "strongest survive" thing there'd be some that developed very....carnivorous appetites XD maybe an even somewhat cannibalistic side-cult society or something and sharpening their teeth can be some kind of creepy rite of passage o.o (or maybe that's getting a little TOO dark, thanks brain *reels brain back and makes it sit in the naughty corner*)

Gotta have ghost dad pop in every now and then or we'd miss him! Haha

It hasn't been really D: but I think it's our area in general cuz we had some more outages earlier in the week too o: seems to be fixed now though so that's good! *taps wooden doorframe*

EDIT: Tah dah, got them in and sort of started the convo, didn't want to get too far ahead. Also let me know what you think of the whole Force-signature idea thing and whether it's something that we could actually work with? XD
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