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By the time I figured out there was a template, I'd already written like twenty Alja posts and it just wasn't worth it at that point.
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Ah shit wait I just realized there's a post template
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Pilot's Quarters, Fortuna | In Transit
February 21st, 3061

"Now, take two of these tonight, and another two tomorrow morning, then come back to me again. I'll get you fixed up."

Andrea held a smile as she spoke into the standing mirror propped against one side of her quarters, voice carrying an emotion that could pass for kindness, but slightly too exaggerated, too saccharine. After a moment she dropped her head and sighed, rolling her shoulders. Stepping primly over to her desk, she barely held back a yawn as she began to play her fingers over the projected image of a keyboard that emerged from the small computer terminal, typing up her results. As she did, she muttered under her breath, "Still no success. Still looks and sounds disingenuous. Have yet to figure out how I used to be able to do it. Perhaps a live trial would be more efficient than speaking to a mirror; having a subject might precipitate a better response from the amygdala and limbic system and allow for better recollection of how I used to speak during medical practice."

She slapped the side of the terminal, turning the keyboard off to avoid any stray errors that would result in a typo or skewed data. Then she leaned her head back, pulling her hair out from behind her and letting it fall over the chair. She puffed her cheeks out, huffing a breath and staring out into space. My colleagues used to be able to do this too. What did they do that you're missing, Andy? Perhaps I went too far on the tone of voice, or the language wasn't casual enough?

Shaking her head, she failed at holding back the yawn this time, her perpetual sleeplessness dogging her heels as it always did. She ignored it, pointedly staring away from the bed. She had too much to do. Scooping up half a dozen pill bottles from her desk, she carefully placed them into a bag that she kept hanging by the door. Then, even more carefully, she transplanted four syringes from a rack on her desk to a case that she slid into her pocket. Sliding the bag over her shoulder, she pulled her door open and headed for the medical bay. They'd never cared too much about her working there, as long as she never made too much of a mess and always cleaned it up. But it was nearly impossible to get live test subjects there. If she tried, she would alarm the rest of the medical staff, and she didn't need to get tossed up the Fortuna like she was tossed off of Kallas. As unimpressive as they were compared to her old laboratories, they were still a long way better than most of the places she'd worked after her license was stripped.

But that was neither here nor there. She didn't need a live subject at the moment. Not until much later. For now, she just needed to make sure the drugs she was working with could actually be worked with the way she hoped they could without losing potency. Or gaining too much potency. Muscle relaxants were all well and good when used to keep someone from moving during an operation, or any other situations where she might not want them to. But too much of a good thing, as they always used to say. There were drugs that were meant for killing that she'd used before. This was not supposed to be one of those.

As she walked quickly through the narrow hallways towards the lifts that would take her to the inner decks and, eventually, the medical facilities, she carefully opened up the needle case, scrutinizing each just to make sure that they were exactly what she needed. Good. She smiled to herself, quietly humming as she blinked her tired eyes and closed the case and delicately placed it back into her pocket. She accelerating her pace. The earpiece in her ear hummed quietly along with her. If there was anything she needed to know, she'd hear it. Otherwise, she hoped she'd be left unbothered.

After all, there was so much to do!







Alja sighed, resting her cheek against the bar as she lost herself in thought. The gods, huh? If only. it would make things a lot simpler, wouldn't it? But no matter the heart-to-heart they were having, she couldn't explain to her that she'd been coming to this world as an avatar in a video game locked into her dreams. Trailing her finger along the edge of the flagon almost meditatively, she found herself stuck in her thoughts. Didn't fail anyone, hmm? Well, that was a flat-out lie. The only job of the wayfarers was to clear the dungeons and keep the world of Aetheria safe. They hadn't. Failing that, the purpose of wayfarers was to protect the denizens in more clean-cut ways; escorting them from city to city as guards, searching the wilderness for a plant that was needed to cure a sick elder from a terrible cough. They hadn't They had shirked everything that a Wayfarer was. And so they had failed. And ain't their fault they couldn't go back? That was true enough, she supposed, but it was still their fault they were here to begin with. They'd made a conscious decision to put that headset on each and every time they played. Nobody was forcing them. They'd become part of this world by choice. But now that their choice had been taken away, they were supposed to be able to pull away from the world, and it was all supposed to be okay? Something about it didn't sit right with her.

She was afraid of dying. It was why she hadn't gone with the group to clear the dungeon in the Western Marshes instead of rat hunting in the sewers. That it had turned into a dungeon wasn't relevant. She was afraid, and that was understandable, she thought. On earth, in Edinburgh, life-or-death situations were the exception, not the rule. But if she let that fear stop her from doing what she needed to do...that was less understandable. And yet still, she felt it. Shout at her friends about protecting the denizens—the people—under their care all she wanted, that didn't change that she was scared. But clearly, this world had a need for wayfarers. It ran under the assumption that there would be wayfarers to clear the dungeons. But now there weren't. And so the world's needs were not met. Only they could purge them. So if not them, who?

So they couldn't pull away from the world. If they were trapped here, then they couldn't treat it like the game it was rapidly ceasing to be. If they were trapped here with these people, then it didn't matter that they might have been code, might still be code. They were still people now for all intents and purposes. To stop clearing the dungeons would be to break a fundamental part of the world. And if the world went, then so did they, right? The world needed them. Perhaps the thought came to her out of egotism. But she didn't think so.

But on one thing, Dariel was right. The best that they could do was handle it the best they could. For some, that might mean doing the jobs that needed doing in the cities. For some, it might mean hiding, doing their best to ignore the situation entirely. She didn't think any less of them. A part of her wanted to do that too. But it was the lesser part of her, born of that primal fear. For her, 'doing the best she could' meant going out and doing what wayfarers did. Because if wayfarer's didn't...

...Then who would?

Her face cleared. Set now in her resolve—do what must be done, remain calm, always be a presence to fall back to, protect as best she could—she sat up straighter, shooting a loose salute at Dariel with as a quick grin came to her face. "Well, you've given me a lot to think about, haven't you? And it's stuff that needed thinkin' 'bout. You ever need anythin', you just let me know."

She sighed again as Seele called her over, but a different kind of sigh, and her grin blossomed into a full smile. She lifted the flagon, and with a quick "Cheers!" drained the orange juice in one long draught.Good goddamn, that's good—before tilting her head at Dariel. "Guess that's my cue, huh?" As she rose from the seat where she'd been slumped, her brow was clear, and so were her thoughts. Truly, she needed to be better than she had. Taking the first step towards the table, she shot one final glance back to the tavern keeper, smile still bright on her face. "...And thanks, Dariel. Thanks a lot. Seriously, I owe ya one, hey?"

Then she clomped over to the table and slung herself down in a chair sideways, pitching her legs over an arm and laying her own arm casually on the table. "Sorry 'bout all that, not very Guard of my Frost." She winked at Artemis and turned the full force of her smile straight at her, determined now to be a comforting presence. "So, what'd I miss?"
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As Dariel ruffled her hair, Alja—for just a moment—was transfixed, snapping back to Kelly's childhood, with Elaine doing the same until she'd ducked away, embarrassed. Before Alja could do the same, Dariel pulled away, and she had to resist lightly touching her tousled hair. It was just so unexpected that she had no idea how to deal with it in the moment, but there was still a dim comfort tucked beneath her fading anger.

She listened as Dariel spoke. Listened, as he peeled away a bit of himself and showed her the adventurer that had been underneath him the entire time. As he told her of his history, of the time he'd spent before Pariah, she found herself wondering: he didn't seem like an NPC. So was he ever one? Now that the 'training wheels,' as they were, had been taken off, he seemed more real than he ever had as a generic tavern-keeper. He had a history. He had his own thoughts and opinions. And like she'd said, he had a life of his own. Programming only went so far, could only be so detailed. Something about it bothered her. Something about the way that Denizens had been speaking recently, all the history that underscored the world that had been Pariah. There was an idea building in her mind, something half-formed that she couldn't quite put her finger on. But it was there nonetheless.

She breathed out heavily. Her eyebrows lightened as she exhaled the frustration, leaving her a touch ashamed of how she'd acted. She'd done it again, just like with Rael after the Glitch. She'd lashed out. She needed to stop. She needed to help keep the group united, not wedge them further apart. A knife of self-loathing pierced into her, but she shoved it roughly aside. There was no time for that, no time to feel sorry for herself. There were more important things to deal with than her. She could not snap at her friends like that again, no matter how frustrated she was. She was not Kelly now, nor could she afford to be. She was Alja, created from whole cloth to be the strong center of the group. She needed to act like it.

"I think we're all tryin' to keep goin' in our own way. But some are more shaken. They're afraid. We're afraid. We have lost that feelin' of invincibility. And we weren't prepared to watch friends die." She smiled sadly, shaking her head a little bit. "It must seem silly or downright absurd to you, the thought of adventurin' being a riskless endeavor. But that's what it's always been for us. We'll get there, but it's going to take time for us to adjust. Time that we don't have." She brushed a strand of hair out of her face distractedly. They hadn't done enough. When she looked up, she couldn't meet Dariel's eyes.

"We've failed all of you. Tha mi duilich."


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