TheElvenJedi

You never see it coming[Freedomliveson/The Elvenqueen]

“It’s not your fault, really.” she insisted. “I was being silly, I should have trusted you more. Guess interacting with Manus made me slip back into being paranoid and bitchy.” she shrugged, sitting quietly as Yerbol spoke about what had been bothering him, her head resting gently on his shoulder as she simply took in what he had to say and tried to digest the meaning behind it. When he asked her what she thought about the points he had raised, the Champion chewed her lip thoughtfully.
“No, no...I THINK I understand what you mean. Well, maybe not all of it.” She conceded. “I can see why you'd be worried about changes to your connection with the Force...I can't say I've heard of anything like it before, but there MUST be a solution. If there’s nothing here on Zinuthra, maybe there are other Force users like Kartan and Viqi scattered around that might know more.” Aria felt it was a rather paltry suggestion, given how much it had affected her husband, but at least it was a further course of action which was better than not knowing where to turn next, wasn't it?
“As far as Manus’ ideals go...I admit that since we first met him on Kashyyyk it HAS been something that bothered me a little.” She had pushed it aside at first, unsure whether it had been some sort of mind trick on Manus’ part, but hearing Yerbol voice a similar tangent of thought was comforting. “Since the Qyaari have become more prominent throughout the Alliance worlds, there’s been a lot more pressure on us to always do “the right thing”.” - quotation marks accompanied the loose statement - “The trouble is, sometimes...the right thing for one set of people won’t help others, will it? It can be pretty difficult for us to balance that and still, you know, practise what we preach; so of course it’s possible we’ve changed as a whole order. Even Voldon changed after Manus showed up, ALL the Elders did, in one way or another…Voldon was so determined to stop Manus that he would’ve done ANYTHING to make sure it happened, even if it meant he had to sacrifice himself.” as the memory of the officiating Elder’s loss resurfaced, Aria’s voice dropped to a quieter tone and trailed off into another sigh.

“We can’t change the past, sure, but we mustn’t lose sight of what we meant to do when we all came together anyway. Perhaps we have lost our way a bit….and as bad as it may seem now, maybe with Voldon gone it’s the Force’s way of trying to give us a fresh start, to fix the problems before they become bigger ones that we CAN’T fix.”
Aria fell silent again for a moment, before she snorted loudly. “Listen to us, we sound just like Elders.” a half-hearted chuckle escaped the Champion as she kicked off her boots and scooted up to the pillows on her side. “We should try and get some sleep….I think tomorrow’s going to be an emotionally taxing day for everyone.”

You never see it coming[Freedomliveson/The Elvenqueen]

Yep, finally getting there, aside from my oven/cooker going to take about another month to get here so I'm living on salad and/or microwave food for a while (I needed to lose some weight anyways HAHAHA) I'm getting there! :D Very glad to have the internet back though XD

Yeess, the restored content mod makes it soooo much better! O: I downloaded it a while back when I found out about it and I haven't been able to go back to the unmodded version since XD The extra dialogue at the end with Atton and the female Exile really tugs at your heartstrings, especially if things don't go so well and he ends up dying ;-; just gaaahh

Sounds good to me! :D

You never see it coming[Freedomliveson/The Elvenqueen]

*Army crawls back in* I'm so sorry I was gone for so long! In true life fashion, everything that could have possibly gone wrong, did XD

But I'm finally getting all settled in now and I had time to finish up my post. I'm sooo excited for this next Act we have planned, I even dug out my old KOTOR disks for a bit of a refresher while I had no internet connection XD

As to my post, it's a bit shorter but Ari decided she had some stuff she needed to say. But we can move them on to the memorial in the next few posts if you like?

You never see it coming[Freedomliveson/The Elvenqueen]

The entire atmosphere on Zinuthra seemed to have changed since their return, understandably so given that the news of Voldon’s passing would shake the whole order to its core. The coming weeks became so busy that it transpired she hardly saw Yerbol during the day, being that both Champions had their own duties to attend to. Despite being ordered to rest by both Ailel and Matthew, Aria found herself unable to do so. Instead, she wandered the Academy's halls, finding the occasional dejected student to whom she offered one to one meditation lessons, she may not have been the most approachable of the tutors (certainly her husband's people skills far surpassed her own), but Aria hoped that through aiding her pupils in their own grieving process that she might come to terms with her own; she found it was helpful, up until Paix and Waylon both shooed her from the classroom with stern instructions that “she should be resting, not teaching”. Frustrated, but unable to provide an argument to her case that the other instructors found satisfactory, Aria was forced to comply with their wishes.

Ever since returning from Voss, the Champion had found herself possessed of the same impersonal detachment that had kept her alive for sixteen years in the Sith regime. Such detachment now, however, was unwelcome and disconcerting. Aria knew she shouldn’t allow herself to be too drawn into those feelings, but since she had detected something, through their bond, that Yerbol was keeping hidden away from her, she had found it harder and harder not to withdraw back into her old habits. The Champion knew a better approach would have been to simply speak to Yerbol about it, and yet there was….SOMETHING within her that robbed her of the ability to commit to that decision. She had little doubt that it was a product of the encounters with Manus Vo, the man had been every bit Bracknell’s superior in both strategy and manipulation. Perhaps she hadn’t been entirely immune to the madman’s ramblings as she had previously thought, but rather too preoccupied with the task at hand to notice the effect they had on her psyche. Had the older instructors sensed it, too, and thus forbade her from entering another classroom until she dealt with it? In either case, without a distraction tactic, Aria found herself at a loss and beset with conflicting goals: she did not want to do NOTHING at all, and yet neither could she force her feet to make their way back to their shared quarters to confront Yerbol. Instead, Aria decided it would be best to leave the building and get rid of some of her pent up energy by following the jungle trails that branched out from the main settlement, absently tracking the native fauna simply to give her mind something to do, until her legs began to ache and she came to a stop beside one of the lakes. The purple-ish tint to the sky (caused by the dimming light refracting off the heavily crystallized rock which had first drawn the Qyaari to the planet two years ago) indicated that it was some time in the late afternoon, or perhaps early evening, she had been gone long enough and the others were likely worried about her... But before she headed back to the main complex, the Champion decided she may as well take advantage of the fresh air out here, and clear her mind. The service would be held tomorrow, and after that….Force knew what the Elders would ask them to do. She couldn’t afford to be bogged down by such mental burdens. While it didn’t settle her worries entirely, an hour of meditation DID help Aria to settle her nerves enough to make a decision. As she opened her eyes again, the fading rays of Zinuthra’s suns reflected off the band on her ring finger and she sighed softly to herself.
“For better or worse...well, guess this counts as worse, huh?”
She had never felt more ridiculous in her life. She HAD to talk to him.

By the time she had returned to the main building, the moon was already out, casting just enough light for her to find her way back without much need to enhance her vision with Force techniques. Inside, the lights appeared to be off and she wondered if her husband was already asleep, so made her approach quietly and hoped that the sound of the door opening wouldn’t disturb him if he was. When she heard him speak, however, she relaxed a little bit, stepping over the threshold and shuffling closer to him.
“N-No, you didn’t...I…” she trailed off, plopping herself down beside him. “I was being a brat, and I overreacted...I’m sorry. I just, needed time to think.” she kept her gaze dropped away from his, fixed instead on her hands which she kept knitted together in her lap, as she fumbled for the right words to say. Eventually, the diminutive Champion spoke up again, her voice quiet.
“I hate this….like ever since we came back we hardly know each other.” Aria wrung her hands together in agitation, shoulders slumping slightly. “I just...it feels like there’s something you’re not telling me and after everything that happened with Manus and on Voss I...I got caught up in my own head and I got upset, and I started taking it out on you and I shouldn’t have.”
Finally shifting her position to turn and look at him, Aria scooted a bit closer and placed her hand over his. “I love you, no matter what. And I just want you to know that you don’t...you don’t HAVE to tell me anything if you’re not ready to. But when you are, I’m here.” the Champion cleared her throat again, trying to stifle the tears that threatened to fill her eyes at the thought that what they had been through on Voss could have almost threatened their relationship if she hadn’t seen sense.

“I just...I need to know that you’re okay. That WE’RE okay.”

Site Server Issues - 22nd Jan

Still having odd intervals where it suddenly gets really jittery for me. But for the most part it seems to be back to normal...stiiiilll a little concerned. Will be backing up as many posts as I can manage.

You never see it coming[Freedomliveson/The Elvenqueen]

Thanks! It's a relief to finally have that part done, now I just have to sort out all the furniture and then the WiFi and I'll be golden XD

No worries at all! Hope you're all doing okay, snowy weather is never good! D:

Shuffle your music player and post the first 10 songs

1. Butterfly Culture-Benjamin Francis Leftwich-Last Smoke Before The Snowstorm
2. Bird, Set Free-Sia-This Is Acting [Deluxe Edition]
3. Chandelier-Sia-1000 Forms Of Fear
4. Blood On My Name-The Brothers Bright-Blood On My Name
5. Eulenspiegel-Saltatio Mortis-Licht Und Schatten [Best of 2011 Bis 2014]
6. Wolves Without Teeth-Of Monsters And Men-Beneath The Skin
7. Far Too Young To Die-Panic! At The Disco-Too Weird To Live, Too Rare To Die!
8. Fire [Explicit]-Pvris-White Noise [Deluxe]
9. Roman Holiday-Halsey-Badlands [Deluxe]
10. Somebody That I Used To Know [Gotye Cover, feat. Vic Fuentes]-Mayday Parade-Punk Goes Pop, Vol 5

Current Mood in One Gif

scuse me while I sleep for 10 thousand years. I never seem to get enough of it lately qq

Let's B!tch. I feel it's a healthy release for our roleplay annoyances 2.0

<Snipped quote by Odin>

At least it isn't an actual rule that says you can only write up to X amount of paragraphs maximum and only certain people can write past that.

@Poi

That seems like...a. very redundant and ridiculous rule, if you ask me o.o

You never see it coming[Freedomliveson/The Elvenqueen]

No worries, thanks for letting me know! No rush as always :3

On that note, actually XD I just got the keys for my new place (*panicked flailing* I don't feel prepared for adulting at this degree yet! D: XD) today, so I will be starting the moving process in the near future...so my posts may be delayed/a lot slower until I'm all settled in again

But it should be a few weeks still before I end up having to take a full hiatus, currently I'm having to only move stuff on weekends when my dad can help me move stuff (because...I'm only 5'4", I can't lift big furniture myself LOL)