Once at the balcony, Riona took off her ruined apron and used the parts that werenât stained with wine to wipe said wine off of her face. Between wipes, the maid double-checked to see if there was anyone else present. Though there were none, she didnât want to take any chances, so she led Callum to a corner of the balcony that was a blindspot from most eyes. For another person to see the two, they would have to walk out to the balcony or be spying on them from a specific spot in the ballroom.
She tossed her apron onto one of the benches and faced Callum. Riona stared at him, âSorry beforehand if I ruin your clothes too. You look dashing in them, by the way. Absolutely miserable, but dashing.â She grabbed both of his arms, pulled him closer, and buried her face into his chest, letting out a long muffled scream. She needed to vent her anger somewhere. Since there was no pillow handy, however, Riona improvised. At least she didnât punch or kick him like she did with the pillows.
She groaned. âCal, remind me again why I havenât blocked all the escape routes and set this place on fire?â Yet.
âWell, for one youâre a far better person than entirety of that viper pit and, two, it would be rather difficult to ensure that all innocent people made it out before the damn palace burnt to the ground. A third reason; Edin might well be an infernal demon from the bowels of hell and fire might not do the trick.â Cal spoke all three reasons as if they were all equally valid, and comfortably wrapped his arms around Riona in a hug.
Wine, inadventably, continued to soak into his clothes as well but it hardly mattered, there was a near endless stockpile of clothing inside the palace and it was all replaceable. He had given a small smile at the âdashingâ comment, dashing and useful was really all he was meant to be, like a nice piece of furniture or ornate decorative piece within the palace, currently, it seemed, he was only failing at being useful. Perhaps ruining the clothes would at least help him suceed in failing at both.
âAnd however will I recover my reputation, smelling of wine for the rest of the night? People might start to think Iâm a drunkard.â He joked of his poor reputation with a small sense of pride. One day heâd have to find something better to live for than making his fatherâs life more difficult, but that day was yet to come. He kept a close eye on the balcony doors, knowing full well trouble would always be manageable for him and potentially devastating towards Riona.
She snorted at Callumâs list of answers. Two out of the first three reasons were up for debate, but she agreed that there were innocent people in there. To involve them would make her as despicable as King Edin. Yet the embers wondered, so what if she did? Fight fire with fire. Better people than she had tried and failed to oppose him without stooping to his level. How was a nobody supposed to go up against a king? She had nothing to her name, only the skills she acquired through the years. What if it was a necessary evil?
âGods, I hate it when you talk sense⌠but⌠youâre right.â She sighed reluctantly before releasing the prince and taking a few steps back, assessing the damage. As to be expected, some of the wine transferred onto him. It was harder to see it on the darker colors, but there was no mistaking the small flecks of purple on the lighter colors. She reflexively rubbed the cloth with her thumb as if the wine was dirt rather than liquid soaked into the fabric. She noted what looked to be paper sticking out of his pocket, but she doubted it was rendered illegible. âYou might have to give up on peopleâs image of you being a drunkard though. Itâd be a hard sell if youâre covered in wine stains. Not to mention, you have a tavern named after you. Once they figure out youâre not the owner, people will think the tavern only needs you to keep business afloat.â Her fingers stopped the vain attempt to physically rub the stain away. Instead, she removed her hat and tossed it next to the apron. âIf it makes you feel any better, you wonât be the only one labeled a drunkard by the end of this party.â The maid shivered at the image of the not-so-distant future, praying that it wouldnât be as bad as midnight taverns.
âThanks for the help out there. I mightâve lost my temper if you didnât step in when you did.â As she expressed her gratitude, her brows furrowed by another thought. What was Callum doing there? Not that he wasnât allowed to be specifically at that spot, but he wasnât supposed to be there alone. âArenât you supposed to be mingling with the ladies? I thought you were assigned to one of Count Calbertâs daughters? Where is she? Did she ditch you?â Her eyes widened, âDid you ditch her?â Unlikely considering Callumâs disposition. Even if the dance was rigged for King Edinâs benefit, or Count Calbertâs for that matter, the Callum Riona knew wouldnât have given his dance partner the cold shoulder just to ruffle King Edinâs feathers. He understood that they were being used as a pawn like he was by his father. He would never hold that against them.
âYouâre welcome, but really I shouldâve stepped in sooner. This is my home as well, and working here should not mean having to put up with that.â He shook his head, everything about this court was so woefully skewed by Edinâs cruel influence. He was a bit surprised to find her concerned that he was following his fatherâs instructions to the letter. He doubted Riona wanted to see the palace filled with more Danrose children or a satisfied grin on Edinâs face.
âIt was arranged for me to dance with Violet, who did not want to dance. So I spoke with her for a bit, and later with her sister Crystal as well. Technically, I think Iâve fulfilled my mingling requirements for the night. Of course, Auguste and I both received the find a proper obedient wife talk, and Auguste has been assigned to court Beatrice, Varianâs princess. So far it seems heâs had no luck. Wulfric was dancing with Wystan, which I canât imagine pleased father very much either. And Anastasia was lying on the floor for part of her dance, so it seems I will have plenty of company on Edinâs shit list after tonight.â Cal recounted much of what heâd seen throughout the night, smiling as he went over all his siblings had done to anger Edin tonight.
âPerhaps soon the time will come when his entire line is done with his shit and the stress alone causes the shriveled up raisin he calls a heart to fail. And you, are the last person Iâd expect to want me focused on furthering the Danrose line.â He added and he offered the bottle of wine in his hand to Riona. He often found alcohol helped ease the frustration of having little control over oneâs own life.
âAnd how has your night gone? Before recent events of course.â Cal asked, trying to gauge the decency of the rest of the guests inside, many of whom, especially those of Alidasht, he was unfamiliar with.
Riona spent half a second pondering if it was a good idea to drink right now before accepting the bottle from Callum. She already smelled like she was drinking on the job, what difference would it make if she actually did? She pushed the mouth of the bottle against her lips and tilted her head back, chugging the wine. She didnât savor the taste of the vintage, just downed the liquid as if she hadn't had a drop of water in days. A terrible way to consume the wine, no joy in the act, and bordering on insulting to the winemakers who spent so much time and energy to create this one bottle. At least she drank it, unlike some other people. After taking a couple of large gulps, Riona sighed loudly and offered the bottle back.
âAre you actually interested in the fine details of cleaning after people? Because itâs really not that exciting. Downright boring when everyone isn't making a mess. Youâre forced to stand around, waiting ⌠and waiting, until something happens.â Riona pointed her finger at the prince, âNow if your real question is howâre our guests? Then I advise asking the staff that had to serve them. All I can say is that our Alidasht guests, especially the animals, have behaved better than a lot of our Caesonian nobles. Of course, they might just be restraining themselves for the party, butâŚâ The dance with Shahzade Munir replayed in the back of her head, bringing forth a small smile, âSo far, they arenât too bad.â If Callum were to take his chances overseas by marrying one of the foreign guests, Alidasht might not be a bad option. It was far from Caesonian and they weren't afraid to fight off King Edin if it came down to it. Alidasht would have its own set of problems to deal with, but what country didnât?
âAnd you, are the last person Iâd expect to want me focused on furthering the Danrose line.â Her, wanting him to focus on furthering the Danrose line? Now that was the funniest thing sheâd heard all night.
The maidâs chuckle turned into a hollow laugh. She waved her hand, âSorry, sorry. I just⌠haha. Oh, Cal⌠Who said anything about procreating? I said mingle. You do know how babies are made, right? The birds and the bees? That whole spiel? Simply mingling with women wonât make them pregnant. Nor does getting married guarantee a child. BesidesâŚâ A prolonged silence followed her last word. Rionaâs gaze drifted away to the night sky as she rubbed her arms.
Was Cal entirely interested in the fine details; did he need or want to know exactly how many things had been discarded onto the floor, how many glasses were broken, how much food had been spilled and wasted, all by those who thought themselves so much better than the rest of the world? No, but he was willing to listen if there was anything she needed to vent. But what she said Alidasht, was probably the highest praise heâd heard from Riona about any set of nobles so maybe this new group was not so bad.
âI can assure you I received a thoroughly repulsive talk on that subject from our king many many moons ago,â Cal said shaking his head as he took the bottle back from Riona. While it was likely awkward for all children to hear the sex talk from their parents, Edinâs delivery deserved to be a punishment in one of the deepest layers of hell.
âBut that is the endgame for all this mingling. Edin hardly stays awake at night worrying about whether his children have found themselves a lovely group of friends. No, he sits around making lists of which asses he needs us all to kiss for him, and which ladies of the court will give him the most well-bred grandchildren. Talk to the wrong sort and he might just banish them out into the wilderness to die and call it mercy.â Cal added in as Riona paused to look up at the stars, guessing that if she was deep in thought, the words that were about to follow would be less lighthearted. He took a long drink as he waited for her to continue.
Her mouth moved to say something, then hesitated. âCallum,â she finally said, âyouâre running out of time.â Her eyes locked on to his. âIf you really want to escape this life⌠be free from Edin with as little political complications as possible⌠I donât think youâve much time left. As long as you stay here, youâll be forced to marry, Cal. Donât try to fool yourself by thinking otherwise. It might not be now or any time soon, but it will happen as long as heâs alive.â Maybe even after his death if the Danroseâs creed remained intact. It already outlived King Edinâs predecessors, it was unlikely to die along with him. âHeâll make sure you never join any monastery or any organization that forbids its members from getting married, in this country. Heâll chain you to your room if necessary. Heâs a f**king dipsh*t, who doesnât understand your worth as a person, but heâd never willingly give up a pawn he can take advantage of, no matter how rebellious you are⌠At the end of the day, he knows you wonât leave.â She took a few steps closer to Callum without averting her gaze, âBecause youâre still here⌠In spite of all the things heâs done, youâre still standing here.â Which begged the question: why? Why was Callum still âhereâ? At the party; living in the castle; in Sorian, Caesonia; alive. Callum Danrose loathed his very own existence, cursed the blood that coursed within and the man who sired him, yet he was all of the above. What was keeping him here?
It seemed she too wanted to discuss everyoneâs favorite subject; his poor choices. Coming from her, it did cut a bit deeper than from anyone else, but he also knew it didnât come from a place of malice. The intensity of her eyes didnât help, nor did the fact that everything she said was the sort of truth he knew and chose to ignore anyway. âWell, heâll want Wulfric married first, he needs a proper heir. Iâve still got some time to figure something out.â He gave an awkward reply, and looked away and out towards the landscape visible from the balcony.
âAnd sure, I could leave, and then what? Be somewhere all on my own, with very little in the way of useful skills, always looking over my shoulder, never able to live a life that wasnât a lie in some way. Best case scenario, I drink myself to death in some far away gutter. Doesnât feel very free to have to lie and hide. At least here I have what I need, and enough free time to study magic.â He offered up an explanation in a quiet voice, but even as he said it he knew it wasnât the whole truth, just one small factor. He drank again from the bottle, several long gulps that he needed if he was going to answer with the whole truth. He set the wine bottle down on the ground and walked over to the balcony, his hands studying the railing as he tried to put into words exactly what kept him in Sorien.
âI know theyâre terrible, not just Edin, but all of us. I donât even like them, most of the time, but sometimes theyâre not so bad. Sometimes we feel like real siblings and thatâs better than never at all. My mother, she does try, as much as she can, to make up for him. They are my family, Iâm not going to get another one, and no matter where I go Iâd still be one of them. Maybe itâs better to suffer with company than alone.â Did the occasional hug from his mother make up for his fatherâs abuse? Not really, but it was better than nothing. Sure all of his siblings had their faults but were they any worse than his? Another no. He belonged here with them; guilty by his own association, guilty of never having done anything meaningful to help the people of Caesonia, guilty of prospering from otherâs pain.
âAnd if I left and somehow manage to find a good life outside of here, all of this still exists, nothing changes for the people of Caesonia, they still suffer. What right does a prince have to be happy, when so many of his people suffer?â Cal felt the sting of tears against his eyes, the pressure of all of it tight in his chest. He slouched against the banister, head hung low, and tried to subtly wipe the tears from his eyes. He wasnât sure if it felt better to say it out loud or if it only made the truth sting more. âI donât even know if thereâs anything I can do to make any of this better, or if I just make it worse.â
A pang of guilt grabbed and twisted Rionaâs heart in all directions at the sight of the prince's defeated frame. Tentatively, she placed her hand on his back and rubbed gently, attempting to soothe him. She wasnât sure if the touch comforted him in any way, but it helped her from becoming overwhelmed by the princeâs torment. Every time he showed compassion for the common folk, Riona wondered if Callum was really a Danrose. When that happened, she asked the fates why Callum had to be King Edinâs child? Things wouldâve been less complicated if he was just like his father, selfish and cruel. Then she wouldnât have to feel anything except hate for him.
âAnd why do you stay here? Surely not because of your great loyalty and love for the royal family. There are better places to find work, better kingdoms to work in, and yet, here you are. Why donât you want to be happy?â He asked taking a deep breath of the chilled air before lifting his head and turning back around to face her.
The last question startled Riona. The muscles in her body tensed up and she forgot to breathe. His question hit her harder than she wanted it to.
âWhy donât you want to be happy?â the stable boy asked. âAre you trying to punish yourself for something you had no control over? Iâve never met your parents, but I donât think theyâd want to live the rest of your life like this.â His hand, calloused and covered in dirt, reached over to her. âLet's get away from this place. You and me. Weâll find happiness together.â His words tempted the maid. She was struggling with doubts that festered for years and she was beginning to wish for freedom, to let the fires die for good. She took his hand, hoping that there was peace beyond the horizon. There was none to be had, however. When the boy was trampled to death weeks later, Riona believed it was a sign. She was never going to be happy. Edinâs death was the only thing she had to look forward to in life.
The lack of oxygen forced Riona to take in a shaky breath. She tightened the grip on her arm to regain composure. Slowly she whispered, âIâm here⌠becauseâŚâ Her voice trailed off once again as she contemplated on what answer sheâd give him. She couldâve lied or avoided the question altogether, but the look in his eyes made her reconsider. It was nothing tangible, only a feeling she got which compelled her to give him an honest answer âthat or it was the alcohol kicking in. The simple truth was ugly as it was, so she chose to focus on the essence of the truth.
âI love my family,â she answered with a weak smile. It was no secret that Riona was an orphan, though she never elaborated on the details, she told Callum that her family was murdered. So her answer to his first question mightâve sounded out of place to him, but it was the heart of the matter and the most she was willing to reveal to him at that moment in time. Though there were days when she wanted all of it to end, Riona endured for her family. âAnd Iâm⌠so scared of letting them down. If I left now or died today⌠then absolutely nothing would have changed since the day I came here. I-IâŚt-that canât⌠â The maid gasped sharply and turned her head up as if it would be enough to stop the tears from forming. âThatâd suck,â she laughed between heavy breaths.
Cal wasnât sure what heâd expected her response to be but what he got wasnât anything he wouldâve guessed. In Caesonia one was always expected to grin and bear it, no matter the pain, because emotional displays were unseemly. So it was awkward and unpractised to stand with some with no walls of his own, to watch theirs go down as well, and to exist in such an open space heâd never really found himself in before. And he had no words, there was nothing that he could do or say that would make the world feel any less awful and unjust. So he just listened, as she had done countless times for him, and he didnât look away from her. Cal tried to do nothing that would make it seem like there was anything out of the ordinary for people to be this open.
Riona always seemed so effortlessly strong, so unbreakable and intense. He didnât know how she kept it all up, going through so much, every day, working for them, smiling at them, at the same people who caused all of her pain. In all the years heâd known her heâd never seen a side this vulnerable, and she was not one to seek attention or sympathy, and all of that made seeing her like this so heartbreaking. Now, he saw all the effort her strength took, and it was even harder to understand how anyone could be that strong.
When she was positive that she wasnât going to start crying, Riona faced the prince with a somewhat forced smile, âYou have a better shot at changing things, Cal. All this talk about not being able to do anything or making things worse for everyone else sounds like the bullsh*t Edin likes to drill into your head.â Her fingers tapped Callumâs forehead in emphasis. âWhy are you giving up before you even tried? Because Edin said so? Pssh, please. So what if you screw up and make things âworseâ? Just try again then. Try until you get what you want. Mess up until you get it right, Cal.â Her smile turned softer, more genuine.
Riona took both of Callumâs hands into hers. She held one in the air while she guided his other hand to her back where she released it. Once she placed her free hand on his upper arm, the maid held the position.
Callum allowed his hands and arms to be moved with no resistance. One hand rested where she had placed it against her back, the other remained wrapped around hers. The music from inside could be softly heard slipping through the balcony doors, just enough to keep the rhythm and match her steps, but other than it was quiet. There was only the soft lighting from the night sky and the air was crisp, smelling faintly of the wine that clung to their clothes. Most of all, it felt entirely peaceful, with just enough distance from everything that remained inside for Cal to forget for a moment that the world inside the ballroom even existed.
âDo you remember when you got healthy enough to start taking dancing lessons? You were so bad at it so we decided to practice together? You stepped on my toes and we tripped each other so many times, Iâm kind of surprised we still have feet to walk on. Donât even get me started on the number of times you dropped me during a dip because I was too fat.â The exact word he used was âheavy,â but she chose âfatâ instead to tease him. Callum was still a sickly boy at the time and had barely any strength to speak of. Of course, the girl was too heavy for him to hold. âLook at you now, you havenât stepped on my toes or tripped even once. If this isnât proof that people can learn from their mistakes, then I donât know what is.â
âRiona,â and there were so many other things he wanted to say but couldnât for countless reasons, âI never called you fat,â was what he went with, a slightly scoff at the word. âBut I guess I was a whiny brat of a child, I could hardly blame someone if they wanted to throttle me,â he added, and his tone was light, as playful as it ever got, and there was no trace of a grudge in his words. âAnd I am grateful that you are here. Youâre right, I think I have improved some since we last danced if you care to try again, I promise not to drop you.â He spoke with a sincere smile.
âI distinctly remember the last time you said that, I still hit my head on the floor. Theories are all well and good, dear scholar, but I want hard evidence. The proof is in the pudding, as they say.â Riona taunted. Mentally she simultaneously prepared herself for the dip so she wouldnât be taken by surprise if it were to happen and for herself to hit the floor so that she could at least keep potential injuries to a minimum. It never hurt to be prepared for either scenario.
Cal paused for a moment, doubt slipping in, noting subtly changes in her form made it clear she still expected him to drop her. The pause only cause his footing to fall out of rhythm, the misstep turned his focus on avoiding Rionaâs feet and he thought it might just be better for the both of them if he didnât try and add anything else in. But Riona had always been more forgiving of his flaws than most. So once his footing was was again sound he lifted his arm just above her head and for a spin before releasing their lightly clasped hands and placing the now free hand against her back. Cal dipped Riona, keeping her close to him, and holding her parallel to the floor for a brief moment before pulling her back up without fail. âI guess I only had to mess up until I got it right. Iâm glad my previous attempts never left you with any lasting head trauma, otherwise I might not get to hear such wisdom spoken in this palace.â
The princeâs steady hand on her back allowed Riona to feel safe enough to place her free hand over her forehead pretending to swoon when the dip came. As he held her weight, she glanced in Callumâs direction and grinned, before he pulled her back up. âMe too,â she simply said.
As the two continued to dance and banter, the voice in the back of Rionaâs head scolded her for what she had done. None of that was supposed to happen. The carefully maintained distance between them threatened to be disrupted and both couldnât let that happen for their own reasons. She blamed a lot of things for her lapse in judgment such as the drunk nobles who angered her in the first place and the wine that loosened her tongue enough to ask needless questions. Questions which led to Callum and Riona becoming more vulnerable than they intended to be, exposing wounds that bound them to Danrose castle. Callum may have made things complicated for Riona, but she made it even more difficult on herself by giving a damn when she knew that it would only hurt them more in the end. The words from the past repeated to her through the princeâs mouth reminded her of what she was doing here. She needed to refocus on what truly mattered.
âI forgot to ask. Are you planning to stay till the end of the party? You said you reached your mingling quota for the night.â
âI spoke mainly in jest and Edin is in a strange mood tonight, I think the guest from Alidasht have him on edge, seems like it would be a mistake not to try and get to know them better.â Cal knew better than to think he could just pop in and out of these events whenever he wanted, likely he had already been gone from his fatherâs sight long enough now as it was. âAnd after this there is another, informal, party to attend out by the docks.â He added glancing at the letter that peaked out from itâs pocket. He didnât see any reason to hide anything from her; she knew far more damning secrets of his than underground parties. âWhy? Is there someone you think I should be mingling with?â He asked.
So thatâs what it is. She shook her head, âNo, nothing like that. But now I know that Iâm going to have to check your room later to make sure youâre back before anyone else whoâll rat you out notices. So please try to be back before sunrise?â If the paper in his pocket was an invention it usually meant Princess Anastasia was or wanted to be involved. The maidâs eyes narrowed slightly, âDoubly so if Anastasia is going with you. I donât want to drag two drunks to their beds in the dead of night without attracting too much attention, clean Gods knows what off them, and change their clothes before my shift even starts⌠ever again. Seriously, Cal. Never again. Be back by dawn.â
âBack before the sun, quiet as a mouse, no messes. Iâll make sure Anastasia does the same. Hand to the Gods. And I am entirely capable of changing my own clothes.â Cal promised raising one hand up to the sky and he meant it. Truthfully heâd probably do just about anything Riona asked of him, because of all his flaws his most damaging was how attached he found himself to anyone who was kind to him. Entirely desperate to have people like that around him even while knowing how it left him easy to influence or manipulate. Not that heâd ever held any doubts in his trust in Riona, among all the people he knew she was among the most honest.
Rionaâs ears detected the sound of steady footsteps approaching, warning her that someone was making their way to the balcony. She tapped Callumâs arm in warning and stepped closer to whisper in his ear, âIncoming.â Her foot took one step back as she added, âThanks for the break. It was fun.â Riona gently squeezed his hand that held hers before completely stepping away. Once a respectable distance away from the prince, the maid lowered her head, âOf course, your Highness. It will never happen again.â
The new arrival turned out to be another servant holding a hot towel in one hand and a stack of folded white cloths in the other arm âmost likely a clean set of gloves, apron, and bonnet for Riona. They bowed to their prince in greeting and waited patiently for the exchange between Callum and Riona to end.
Cal gave only a sad smile as she tapped his arm and warned him, held onto her hand a little tighter at the same time she had squeezed his before letting go and letting walls and distance return. The doors to the balcony opened up and it was no longer a place that felt any different from the rest of the palace; a place where no one could really be or do as they wanted. He only nodded and snatched the wine bottle back up from where it rested on the floor. âGood, see that it doesnât.â He tried to sound official but his words only managed to come out hollow. He gave a nod and forced a polite smile to the other servant before heading back inside, bring the bottle to his lips and finishing the contents before placing the empty vessel on a serving table.

