“I can’t find anything wrong with your leg.”
Dick Grayson looked up at Leslie Thompkins, his face marked by scowling skepticism.
“Doc, I’m not one to doubt your professional prognosis, but I can’t walk on it.” He replied, moving to stand as if to demonstrate before catching himself on the edge of the examination bed as his knee buckled beneath him.
“Mr. Grayson, physically, you’re fine.” Thompkins reiterated, pointing to the MRI scans on the board behind her. “Your bones are completely intact, no torn muscles or ligaments, no blood clots. By all measures, you are in prime physical condition. Whatever is preventing your leg from working is up here-”
Dick’s eyes rolled upwards as Leslie planted her index finger firmly between them, tapping him on the forehead.
“And I’m afraid that’s something out of my scope of practice.”
“You’re saying it’s all in my head?” Dick deadpanned in disbelief, “I can just will myself to stand up and cartwheel out of here?”
“I wish it were that simple, dear.” Leslie smiled sympathetically, “To be frank, I worry that your body’s waiting on something.” She paused, choosing her next words carefully, “Something that your mind hasn’t caught up to yet, and that’s what’s causing the disconnect.” Leslie took a seat, moving her chair directly across from Dick before her gray eyes locked with his deep blues.
“I know your nights can get a little unpredictable, but did anything traumatic happen recently?”
Traumatic
Happen
Recently?
The smell of gunpowder wafted under Dick’s nose, causing him to recoil in disgust. The cold rain on his skin sent a shiver down his spine while blood pooled on the ground, spreading out from the massive body.
Roland Desmond was dead.
Blockbuster was finally gone.
Sweat, blood and tears blurred his vision as he looked to his shaking arm. The smoking gun was in his hand. It clattered to the ground with an audible thud. A hand took hold of either of his arms as he was hauled away from the body.
He felt his throat going raw, hoarse shouting as he fought against either arm before he was delivered to her.
It was supposed to be a moment of celebration, of triumph.
Why did it feel like betrayal?
The taste of cigarette ash and smoke suddenly filled his mouth. A sandpaper-like tongue rubbing up against his own.
Skin on skin.
Cold.
Paralytic.
“Mr. Grayson?” Leslie asked, her eyes worryingly studying Dick. “Where did you go just now?”
He ignored the question, answering with one of his own.
“You think more of my body will shut down?”
Leslie let out a heavy exhale. Dick’s deflection didn’t go unnoticed, but she knew better than to force the conversation.
“We can put you into a physio to try and stave off atrophy,” Her voice trailed off at the end of the sentence. Dick knew all too well what that intonation meant.
“But?”
“But I’m not ruling out the possibility, Mr. Grayson.” She answered flatly. “That said, if you’re not going to talk to me, then I suggest you do talk to someone.”
Normally, Dick would have flashed his teeth, batted his eyelashes and cracked a joke.
Normally.
Nothing was normal anymore, though. He wasn’t Robin, and he sure wasn’t Nightwing anymore. Just a man living in Blüdhaven trying to find his way in a crazy, mixed-up world. He nodded solemnly towards Leslie, thanking her for her time before picking up his cane and hobbling out the door.
He felt like a prisoner in his own body, only he didn’t know what sentence he was serving.
“What’d Doc Thompkins have to say?”
“How long have you been waiting?” Dick replied, looking up at the radiant, ravishing raven-haired woman standing against the door frame.
“Inconsequential, there were no extracurriculars tonight on account of budget cuts across the board, and I don’t have anything to mark. Besides, you owe me dinner.” Helena smirked playfully.
“Do I?” Dick replied with a coy smile. “On account of what?”
“On account of what I’m planning on doing to you tonight, of course.” Helena smiled, “Don’t think you’ve gotten out of my previous question, though.”
“Leslie thinks my body is processing something that I’m not.”
“That much is obvious.”
“Come again,”
“Richard,” Helena replied, laying a hand on the younger man’s cheek. “You’re a man who lives in the present, always looking forward. It’s one of your greatest strengths, but it’s also your Achilles’ heel. Sometimes life requires you to slow down and remain in the moment.” She smiled softly, gently caressing his face.
“I know you have itchy feet, but the solution isn’t always to run and jump off the next ledge. Sometimes you need to stay in one place and deal with the cause, not treat the symptoms.”
“You know, you could have saved me like a hundred bucks if you had told me that this morning.”
“You and I both know Thompkins runs a free clinic.” She patted her hand against his face playfully. “Take this seriously. Whatever Doctor Thompkins told you to do, you need to do that. You’re more fun when both legs can move.”
Dick flashed Helena a quick grin before she held out her hand.
“Now then, Mr.Grayson,” Helena called, her tone playful despite it sounding like an order. “Pretend you like me and hold my hand. I’m thinking Italian for dinner.”
“Best I can do on a former ward’s budget is Big Belly Burger.”
“You wouldn’t dare.”