Silver Fox

Final Fantasy 9 - Reimagined [Private and Full.]

Karn and Blank mildly listened to the Lumiyan speak of his backstory before the spikey red head clicked his tongue and rubbed his chin, glancing to Karn a bit curiously. "Ya know Karn, it's kinda funny. I've never seen a Lukiyan before but now that I have, you look more like one then a actual Demi-Human. They tend to be more furry like Perrin. You look human besides your cat ears, tail, claws, fangs and eyes." He mused.

The feline simply glanced at her companion. Shrugging slightly as she crossed her arms behind her head. "Who knows. I am a Miscegenation Syndrome child so who the fuck knows? Do know I don't see into the future and shit like Lummox or the kit." she answered quietly before turning away and started heading out.

Blank nodded, shrugging before glancing at Baku. "Sure thing, be good to teach him a few lessons." he said, mildly irked the boss ignored his concerns but brushed it off for now and looked at Karn. "Why don't you go get a meal? You're too scrawny." he teased, yelping as he bunched in the arm and the force knocked him to the ground.

"Gonna go check up on the engines. Try not to get hurt too bad Shirtless." the feline said before heading to the engine room to do more repairs. She didn't used swords nor didn't really wish to play around with them. Walking beside a barrel full of water, she took a mug and scooped some out. Digging into her pocket and pouring a vial of greenish liquid into the water. Before chugging it down. Nose twitching, she clicked her tongue as she felt a bit better.

Blank rubbed his arm as he stood back up before following the others. Standing on the sidelines as he watched with interest toward Cassius and the knight.

Phoenix Wing (A Fairy Tail RP-Always Open, Open)

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We're here for you

@hatakekuro

Indeed @Silver Fox I feel your pain.

Anyways though... I just got back from FINALLY being able to see Shin Godzilla! And it was a pretty damn good movie too!

@Lmpkio

@Silver Fox I'm very sorry for your loss. I know the pain of losing a beloved companion. My first dog Sally was a part of our family since before myself and my older sister were born. Losing her was unimaginably tragic.

Despite everything, it is very good to hear from you again.

@Leslie Hall

Thank you, you guys are too kind ^^ I feel quite a bit better now. Hopefully I'll fully be on my feet again soon.

Phoenix Wing (A Fairy Tail RP-Always Open, Open)

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Are you going to be okay?

@hatakekuro

I think so. Hopefully.

Alright, going to try and finish my post. But first...

@Crimson Raven

Cute :)

Phoenix Wing (A Fairy Tail RP-Always Open, Open)

@Silver Fox
*huggles*

@hatakekuro

*huggles back*

Phoenix Wing (A Fairy Tail RP-Always Open, Open)

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No. no.

Like this:

@Crimson Raven

Phoenix Wing (A Fairy Tail RP-Always Open, Open)

@Silver Fox

Aw...now I'm down... how about a little somehting to lighten the mood?



Be entertained...

Be very entertained...

@Crimson Raven

So fluffy...

Phoenix Wing (A Fairy Tail RP-Always Open, Open)

@Silver Foxsnuggles

@Caits

*snuggles back*

@Silver Fox

Thank you for sharing, it must be difficult for you...

I'm fearfuly bracing myself for something like this. I have a 14 year old dog whom we have had for 13 of those years. I'm 16, so this dog had been around for almost as long as I can remember. She is obviously getting old, her mussel and face is streaked with white, and she has gained a lot of weight. She still runs, and plays, but after she has been still for awhile and gets up, she gets ups stiffly and slowly. She may some possible health issues, and we don't have the money to take her to the vet right now.

On top of that, we have a cat (who is lying beside me as I type this.) who is almost the same age, and starting to show it too.

*sigh*

And just two months ago, one of my cats ran away and has not come back.

@Crimson Raven

Yeah, it's hard knowing that their time is drawing near. Full of dread. And it seems no matter how much you prep, how much you tell yourself 'it's the circle of life, their memory will live on in you, keep moving foreword' it still feels like a punch to the face when it happens. Shock. Numb. Then depression. Like still not prepared.

Still, Im glad your furry siblings lived long lives as well. My black tom who disappeared last year wasn't as lucky. But hopefully a happy one. As well as hope the lost cat had a happy life too.

Phoenix Wing (A Fairy Tail RP-Always Open, Open)

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Pets dying, especially close ones like cats and dogs, is very hard. I understand exactly what you are going through.

I've always loved my pets very much. I remember when I was really young, I had a guinea pig, named Speedy Houdini (because he knew how to escape of the cage, and we would have to chase him around to catch him. That lil' guy could move) I loved him so much, when he died one day, my family held a little funeral for him just to help me deal with it. I remember that I cried the whole time. We buried him in the roots of a tree out back, and my dad hung up a homebuilt swing in honor of him. We no longer live there, but to my knowledge, that swing is still there.

I've had many pets since then, and I can remember every one of their names, what they looked like, and how they acted.

I suppose my point, while cliche, is this: He may no longer be alive, but you still have your memories of him, so he will always be with you.

@Crimson Raven

@Silver Fox
Oh. That's what happened.
I know what you must've been feeling. We put down our 14 year old dog a few years ago...I got to hold him as they did it. Then I lost my grandmother like three days later. Still went out and played in the hockey grand final we managed to make it to and we lost that just to really add some extra hurt into that week (though that was the least of my problems)
All in the days leading up to my birthday. Yay. My parents then tried everything they could to avoid putting the funeral ON my birthday. Not that it mattered in the end as I didn't go to my grandmothers funeral as I was away for school hockey (I made the decision to go regardless). Not that I would've wanted to go to one the day after my birthday anyway. So spent my birthday losing the school hockey finals :P
Still finished 7th in the state but all in all was a very crappy first two weeks of September. The very next year lost my great aunt around that some time -_-' (My family now hates September and calls it cursed, to which I give them a brief response of fuck you too :P)
Crap things always seem to come at once just to kick you while you're down, but all you have to do is get back up, dust yourself off and come back stronger for it. What doesn't kill you makes you stronger after all.
Hardships are part and parcel with life. How you deal with them makes you who you are. I reckon you'll be fine by the end of all this, just gotta keep fighting mate :D

My god words of wisdom from me? what is the world coming to!

@Lunarlors34

Thank you both for the kind words.

I know that I need get up. But it isn't easy at the moment. Suppose it's better then the first night at work. He passed just before I woke up and getting ready for work. 4 hours. Working. Sobbing straight. Eventually just had to go home cause at the point I was staring between my work knife and my wrists and the longer i stayed the darker the thoughts.

He wasn't the first to go in my life, but he was the first body I saw.

My cat who passed a few years ago wasn't here with me when he got put down. But didn't get to say goodbye. At the end of his days, he stayed at my grandparents, his birthplace. But his liver failed and could no longer digest food. So he was just starving to death. Had to put him down to put him out of his misery. Back then, I wanted them to wait so I could go over there, mom made the call to end it though.

Had a few kittens died at my mothers boyfriend place who lived in another state.

My black cat disappeared last year if anyone remembers that.

This time though, I saw my dog slow. A couple days before he went, we went for a walk and he just fell on his side. I thought he would go then. I called him and sat beside him petting him. Then he got back up like all was fine.

Then I woke up one day, took a shower to get ready for work and dad came and told me 'Vulpix passed away.'

Went down stairs and heard mom talking to the vet to order a cremation and saw him lying there. Like he was just resting like normal.

Mom and dad had just returned from being out of town. It was like he was waiting for the right time to pass away when we weren't looking, but close enough so all of us would be there.

I thought I would be fine. Told myself I was prepared. Death was natural. Toughen up and move on. That didn't seem to happen though ..

When you have no other siblings, and these were your only playmates your entire life, it's hard. It really was like having a sibling. Got jealous when mom payed more attention to the younger sibling, teased and played with him.

Now to just brace for the sister dog to go too. She didn't realize. Now she is though. Taking it better then rest of us but she's come to the realization that he isn't coming back.

Then... In the household the animals will come from 4 to 1.

Phoenix Wing (A Fairy Tail RP-Always Open, Open)

@Silver Fox
What happened? I sorta just disappeared for the last few months from the OOC >.>
Was busy procrastinating as I do. If I had saw you mentioned something about having a bad time I would've talked to you :(
Karn is still amazing btw.

@Lunarlors34

I didn't say what exactly happened here, just that I wasn't doing really well mostly and sorry I wasn't replying. My profile status pretty much explains what happened.

There's several details I could say as that event happened, though even now it's hard to stomach just remembering

And thank you for liking the little cinnamon roll kitty. We both appreciate it.

Phoenix Wing (A Fairy Tail RP-Always Open, Open)

@Silver Fox
I know how that is. This year has been the worst. And...I know what it is to wish you would never wake up.

It seems I only ever have the energy to roleplay...although that's been lacking.

*huggles*

I just wish I could make everything better

@Caits

*huggles back*

Yeah, me too.