Sources of Writing: Laptop, Desktop [maybe in the future] Years of Experience: 10. RP Level: High-Casual to Low Advanced. It varies on mental state, knowledge, and time. Commitment/Dedication Level:Very High.
Personality: Nice, Shy [when not pushed], Introverted, Caring/Compassionate, Understanding, Friendly, Honest, Imaginative, Organized, Protective, Loyal, Stubborn, Determined, Opportunistic, Sarcastic, Obsessive (somewhat) Habits, Tics, and Quirks: Daydreaming, Repeating things [at times or when pushed/provoked] Fixated on thoughts, Autistic (Learning and processing information is affected)
Biggest RP Pet Peeve: Ghosting, Whereabouts, Dishonesty. Please be present and keep me updated from time to time. I'll do the same for you. It's annoying when people become invisible or ignoring, miraculously appear out of nowhere, and complain, once they find a story canceled. And be truthful in RP's and out of them.
Basic Comforts: ~ Primarily 1x1, since groups one time died on me quick ~ Mainly male OCs, though I'll take on a female role [npc]. ~ CanonxOC, OCxOC & (sometimes) CanonxCanon. I can play various canons for both of the two. ~ MxF, FxF. I mostly do/lean into the dominant-role, depending on character and plot. ~ PM's more than threads [doesn't mean I am open to them], but stories with strong adult content belong in the PM's only. ~ Open to dark themes (drugs, abuse, etc.)
Music: '80s-'00s Heavy Metal/Rock/Rock and Roll,/Electronic-Dance, Pop, R&B, '90s-'00s Hip-Hop/Rap & Blues, Jazz, Country, Video Game OST's, Anime OST's.
@CorrosiveCherri I am looking for the same thing as everyone else has been able to find where else I feel like I have to struggle and work MUCH harder to even catch up to their successes where I have gotten nothing but failure and ghosters along with little interest.
In terms of @Celaira and her words, I have commented on other chests before but it didn't lead to anything long-term or to my liking or like before it was dead at the planning phase where I started with the conversation and no reply after.
Well 'dishonorable' isn't weird to me when I look at it. I look at it and your word as someone has said it, you should be more than capable to back it up also. My viewpoint would disagree with 'everybody' having a lack of interest on their part or even to the levels of my bad RP luck.
Well I have to be guarded because whenever I have done put myself out there before there was little or even no interest for it and I have kept trying before but it felt like a waste of energy and effort as at my max in terms of effort I wasn't seeing the payout I expected for myself. I feel it is a war against those who are dedicated and in their way are dishonorable ghosters. I don't see their actions as 'moving on' at all. I can't justify someone doing that to another person.
Well Raven, I can appreciate the words that you have said with getting that frustration feeling as to me it feels like no one does and was alone in that aspect. I feel like I can't accept it as ghosting is dishonorable in my eyes, what the person has done was hype up interest only to bail and it makes me feel used in a sense of their twisted enjoyment.
It's hard to have like confidence in my work. I haven't asked if my post was either good enough or okay though in the back of my mind I have wondered about it, and it is coming off those dead RP's I have talked about and also seeing people are not interested in my stuff just causes doubts if anyone liked my stuff from the start considering what I have been through.
I feel like why continue to put myself out there when experience and interest hasn't shown me much in the scope of things? Also from the first site I was at [which you can't search for no one now, you can be ghosted, ignored or even blocked for asking] it just puts me on frustration from this experience and the feeling of unrelation for me is going to be there. I feel I have to take RP's seriously because of this and I don't have time of anyone dishonorable that ghosts or would remove someone for doing so.
And in terms of like showing off the best at what I got, it is like why do that when interest isn't big or even there? I feel like I have to be guarded and with my info and interests because of the little interest I have gotten despite being as varied as possible. It is just tiring to see my efforts not panning out over and over as it just chips away at my muse.
[Had to step away for moment due to a problem so trying to catch up and post what i feel.]
I have done that once here before, and it died as quickly as it did when I joined. It just feels like I'm just cursed with bad luck knowing anything I have done or tried hasn't gotten me any note of long-term payout or feel of this actually working for once.
Well let's start with the first question, the problems I have had in roleplaying as a whole. Not to mention the 45 dead RP's in a year within that span of joining but somewhere else I had 85 dead rp's in a year of joining that before it doubled to 95. The problem overall for me was taking those of interest and they either never replied back to me after I posted the starter or even dropping it in the planning phase. I have taken advice on how to at least try to get interest but they haven't worked at all, even after doing it.
As for me, I keep trying to find interest but no one outside of very few even bite and even then the staying power for me is so lacking. Longest RP I had was one year before that person ghosted me and I felt betrayed by that as it was so sudden and abrupt.
General interest wise, I feel I am diverse enough to qualify for just about any sort of potential interest as a whole but when no one bites the characters I have for them I may as well keep close because I don't want to be left hanging by ghosters ever again and then seeing people coast on without much issue in comparison to myself is more frustrating as a person to see person A, B or even C get interest where as I don't at all no matter the effort I have put into my IC's.
Well I didn't expect to get a second one. I wish I knew who gave them to me but it is nice to know someone does care and that is a good feeling to have.
The wolf is now at this point irked and angry of the world around him, luck and life at this point has teamed up and made the wolf's life next to impossible to be happy in unlike the others in the world around him. The outlook of the once happy wolf is now grim and is feeling more and more excluded from the world that it once called home while everyone else seemed to only do better around him and it only fuels the hatred within him as the darkness takes over as things were not going in his favor at all.
He could feel the lack of rewards in his life as the strife doesn't seem to be letting up but in fact increase and get worse, momentum is fleeing and fickle as it is yanked out from under the wolf as he needs a life saver and one where things go the wolf's way for once. Life is cutting the wolf's belief in anything good as he doesn't see how good life can be anymore when it and luck are against him as the fog rolls in consuming the wolf as things are a mess around him.
The max effort of the wolf is never enough as life refuses to go how he wants it to go, everyone around him has found a mate but the wolf has not, the wolf is becoming the lone wolf of story and legend despite it wanting to be like everyone else. Happy, loved and on the rise in life and morale while it's happy ending won't be a mirage but actually real.
Though that is what the wolf desires, it knows life will always be against him, luck has joined against him and even love has joined the fray as it felt like a triple sided attack, his back he feels he can't trust to allies feeling they will betray him like others that came before them. Part of him has succumbed to the darkness and also his mind.
Blind to the darkness and also the light to a degree around him, the wolf goes on baring teeth carrying hate along with him as his mind has these thoughts in his head. 'Will I ever be happy like them? Everyone around me is happy, why not me? I deserve that too. Will I ever be happy or am I destined to fade away?'
[color=ed1c24][b]Pen Name:[/b][/color] Alexander
[color=ed1c24][b]Aliases:[/b][/color] Kyoya, Terra.
[color=ed1c24][b]Birthday:[/b][/color] September 1
[color=ed1c24][b]Ethnicity:[/b][/color] African-American.
[color=ed1c24][b]Ancestry:[/b][/color] English, Irish, African.
[color=fff200][b]Occupation(s)[/b][/color]: Part-Time Parking Event Staff, Student (school-year; part-time)
[color=fff200][b]Major:[/b][/color] Cinema and Screen Studies
[color=00aeef][b]Sources of Writing:[/b][/color] Laptop, Desktop [maybe in the future]
[color=00aeef][b]Years of Experience:[/b][/color] 10.
[color=00aeef][b]RP Level:[/b][/color] High-Casual to Low Advanced. It varies on mental state, knowledge, and time.
[color=00aeef][b]Commitment/Dedication Level:[/b][/color] [b]Very High.[/b]
[color=662d91]Personality:[/color] Nice, Shy [when not pushed], Introverted, Caring/Compassionate, Understanding, Friendly, Honest, Imaginative, Organized, Protective, Loyal, Stubborn, Determined, Opportunistic, Sarcastic, Obsessive (somewhat)
[color=662d91]Habits, Tics, and Quirks:[/color] Daydreaming, Repeating things [at times or when pushed/provoked] Fixated on thoughts, Autistic (Learning and processing information is affected)
[color=9e0b0f][u][b]Biggest RP Pet Peeve:[/b][/u][/color]
Ghosting, Whereabouts, Dishonesty.
Please be present and keep me updated from time to time. I'll do the same for you.
It's annoying when people become invisible or ignoring, miraculously appear out of nowhere, and complain, once they find a story canceled.
And be truthful in RP's and out of them.
[color=ec008c]Close Peeps:[/color] [@AngelBites15], [@Vampiretwilight], [@SilverRain], [@Polymorpheus] [RIP]
[color=00a651]Basic Comforts:[/color]
~ Primarily 1x1, since groups one time died on me quick
~ Mainly male OCs, though I'll take on a female role [npc].
~ CanonxOC, OCxOC & (sometimes) CanonxCanon. I can play various canons for both of the two.
~ MxF, FxF. I mostly do/lean into the dominant-role, depending on character and plot.
~ PM's more than threads [doesn't mean I am open to them], but stories with strong adult content belong in the PM's only.
~ Open to dark themes (drugs, abuse, etc.)
[color=004b80]Genres[/color] - Action, Adventure, Anime/Animation, Comedy, Drama[a bit], Family, Fantasy, Horror, Mystery, Romance, Sci-Fi, Superhero, Western, Fandom, Video Games
[color=003471]Themes -[/color] College/High School, Martial Arts, Medieval, Post-Apocalypse, Supernatural, Fantasy, Modern, Slice of Life, Futuristic [maybe]
[color=f9ad81]Music:[/color] '80s-'00s Heavy Metal/Rock/Rock and Roll,/Electronic-Dance, Pop, R&B, '90s-'00s Hip-Hop/Rap & Blues, Jazz, Country, Video Game OST's, Anime OST's.
<div style="white-space:pre-wrap;"><font color="#ed1c24"><span class="bb-b">Pen Name:</span></font> Alexander<br><font color="#ed1c24"><span class="bb-b">Aliases:</span></font> Kyoya, Terra.<br><font color="#ed1c24"><span class="bb-b">Birthday:</span></font> September 1<br><font color="#ed1c24"><span class="bb-b">Ethnicity:</span></font> African-American.<br><font color="#ed1c24"><span class="bb-b">Ancestry:</span></font> English, Irish, African.<br><br><font color="#fff200"><span class="bb-b">Occupation(s)</span></font>: Part-Time Parking Event Staff, Student (school-year; part-time)<br><font color="#fff200"><span class="bb-b">Major:</span></font> Cinema and Screen Studies<br><br><font color="#00aeef"><span class="bb-b">Sources of Writing:</span></font> Laptop, Desktop [maybe in the future] <br><font color="#00aeef"><span class="bb-b">Years of Experience:</span></font> 10.<br><font color="#00aeef"><span class="bb-b">RP Level:</span></font> High-Casual to Low Advanced. It varies on mental state, knowledge, and time.<br><font color="#00aeef"><span class="bb-b">Commitment/Dedication Level:</span></font> <span class="bb-b">Very High.</span><br><br><font color="#662d91">Personality:</font> Nice, Shy [when not pushed], Introverted, Caring/Compassionate, Understanding, Friendly, Honest, Imaginative, Organized, Protective, Loyal, Stubborn, Determined, Opportunistic, Sarcastic, Obsessive (somewhat)<br><font color="#662d91">Habits, Tics, and Quirks:</font> Daydreaming, Repeating things [at times or when pushed/provoked] Fixated on thoughts, Autistic (Learning and processing information is affected)<br> <br><font color="#9e0b0f"><span class="bb-u"><span class="bb-b">Biggest RP Pet Peeve:</span></span></font> <br>Ghosting, Whereabouts, Dishonesty.<br>Please be present and keep me updated from time to time. I'll do the same for you.<br>It's annoying when people become invisible or ignoring, miraculously appear out of nowhere, and complain, once they find a story canceled.<br>And be truthful in RP's and out of them. <br><br><font color="#ec008c">Close Peeps:</font> <a class="bb-mention" href="/users/angelbites15">@AngelBites15</a>, <a class="bb-mention" href="/users/vampiretwilight">@Vampiretwilight</a>, <a class="bb-mention" href="/users/silverrain">@SilverRain</a>, <a class="bb-mention" href="/users/polymorpheus">@Polymorpheus</a> [RIP]<br><br><font color="#00a651">Basic Comforts:</font><br>~ Primarily 1x1, since groups one time died on me quick<br>~ Mainly male OCs, though I'll take on a female role [npc]. <br>~ CanonxOC, OCxOC & (sometimes) CanonxCanon. I can play various canons for both of the two. <br>~ MxF, FxF. I mostly do/lean into the dominant-role, depending on character and plot. <br>~ PM's more than threads [doesn't mean I am open to them], but stories with strong adult content belong in the PM's only.<br>~ Open to dark themes (drugs, abuse, etc.) <br><br><font color="#004b80">Genres</font> - Action, Adventure, Anime/Animation, Comedy, Drama[a bit], Family, Fantasy, Horror, Mystery, Romance, Sci-Fi, Superhero, Western, Fandom, Video Games<br><font color="#003471">Themes -</font> College/High School, Martial Arts, Medieval, Post-Apocalypse, Supernatural, Fantasy, Modern, Slice of Life, Futuristic [maybe]<br><br><font color="#f9ad81">Music:</font> '80s-'00s Heavy Metal/Rock/Rock and Roll,/Electronic-Dance, Pop, R&B, '90s-'00s Hip-Hop/Rap & Blues, Jazz, Country, Video Game OST's, Anime OST's.</div>