souleaterfan320

Myriad Reality

Who all is still waiting on replies from me?

Myriad Reality

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*Does nothing as I continue.*

@Stabby

*it becomes somewhat easier to sse, and above you, you can see the sky, but there are no stars out. In front of you, a building comes into view*

Myriad Reality

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*I nod, noticing the strange difference in the feel of the divine power currently surrounding us*

Hmm, this is quite different from Father's power. I suppose that only makes sense given my current circumstances, however.

Ezra:
*I turn towards you*

Ah, good. Wouldn't do for that coward to gain victory over us when we are most vulnerable. *I pause* Or when you are, rather.

@Caldizar

*takes note of the pause in the middle*

... hm.

*begins to sharpen my blades with a whetstone*

I take the first watch; if you need sleep, that is.

Myriad Reality

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*Continues wandering.*

@Stabby

*as you walk, you notice the air gets foggy, seemingly somewhat wet*

Myriad Reality

@Spiritblitz

I saw that, lol.

It's fine, I gave myself some tiem to recuperate. I can talk about it now.

I have to finish the shinji arc soon before college starts. After that, I need to concentrate on that solely, with very little time to post in between. This needs done. Once I'm finished, I'll skip out on my further arcs until college is done. Itll give yall like 2 years to crank out all your stuff until I get mine finished written out, and until I've finished college. Obviously il still post while in college but itll be far less frequent until I can learn to balance the two.

Myriad Reality

Hey guys.

So uh... I got some news.

Im.... gonna take a break once I finish this arc.

And I'm done roleplaying as Shinji after this.
Shinji was supposed to represent a physical insertion of me into Myriad Reality, and has become something so emotionally draining that I can no longer use him without spiraling into old bouts of depression.

Its physically making me sick to use him. I'd channel these emotions so accurately that is litterally killing me, and reopening old wounds of mine that shouldve stayed closed.

I need to take a hiatus after I finish this arc to focus on bettering myself. Maybe one day when I can handle again, I'll bring shinji back. But once this ends....Im probably done for good with him.

Im sorry if this bothers or upsets you, but its negatively affecting my personal life.

Also... I've said it before but I'm going to get therapy soon. My own issues have sucked me into such a deep low that...I've been thinking of suicide quite often... I...I even told my dad today that if things got so bad that I felt that way that thered be nothing to stop it and he shouldnt blame himself.

I've been lying to you all... the truth is, I'm not okay. I havent ben. Ever. I've been better at times, but never truthfully good. Just stuck in a never ending cycle of mostly self inflicted and uncontrollable pain.

I even almost got back into drinking irresponsibly, in a way that I'd drink to kill pain instead of socialize.

I'm so sorry, y'all. I love you guys, I really do.. .but I cant take it anymore.

Myriad Reality

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Yea... Right back at you.
Also if you see a black tentical or mass, avoid the heck out of it. That thing is a major hazard I unleashed on whatever was in here. If you encounter it, just run.

@Stabby

Noted.

*walks off(

Myriad Reality

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Riiiight.
I'm gonna leave you with a safety measure
*A silver bangle appears on your wrist, providing a range of fifteen feet in light somehow.*
If you encounter Aeron, bend it.

@Stabby

Will do. Take care. And... do be careful, please. It's a mess in here.

Myriad Reality

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... where are you headed?

@Stabby

Forward. Making progress.

Myriad Reality

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*They become daisies*

@Nimda

Cool!