Sources of Writing: Laptop, Desktop [maybe in the future] Years of Experience: 10. RP Level: High-Casual to Low Advanced. It varies on mental state, knowledge, and time. Commitment/Dedication Level:Very High.
Personality: Nice, Shy [when not pushed], Introverted, Caring/Compassionate, Understanding, Friendly, Honest, Imaginative, Organized, Protective, Loyal, Stubborn, Determined, Opportunistic, Sarcastic, Obsessive (somewhat) Habits, Tics, and Quirks: Daydreaming, Repeating things [at times or when pushed/provoked] Fixated on thoughts, Autistic (Learning and processing information is affected)
Biggest RP Pet Peeve: Ghosting, Whereabouts, Dishonesty. Please be present and keep me updated from time to time. I'll do the same for you. It's annoying when people become invisible or ignoring, miraculously appear out of nowhere, and complain, once they find a story canceled. And be truthful in RP's and out of them.
Basic Comforts: ~ Primarily 1x1, since groups one time died on me quick ~ Mainly male OCs, though I'll take on a female role [npc]. ~ CanonxOC, OCxOC & (sometimes) CanonxCanon. I can play various canons for both of the two. ~ MxF, FxF. I mostly do/lean into the dominant-role, depending on character and plot. ~ PM's more than threads [doesn't mean I am open to them], but stories with strong adult content belong in the PM's only. ~ Open to dark themes (drugs, abuse, etc.)
Music: '80s-'00s Heavy Metal/Rock/Rock and Roll,/Electronic-Dance, Pop, R&B, '90s-'00s Hip-Hop/Rap & Blues, Jazz, Country, Video Game OST's, Anime OST's.
@Icy Hot Icy Hot, I know we have talked on a somewhat level before but it feels like they are going to lead me astray anyways. Anytime I have taken advice from anyone it doesn't work to what they say it would do nor how I expect it to be. Those that ghosted on me I couldn't change a thing about no matter the effort I put in when it comes to the roleplay attempts and being left hanging either in the planning phase or when I start they never reply back.
It certainly feels like it is permanent and no one gets how this feels. Every time I change something I am let down and the cloth is yanked out from under me, how does it make things easier when every time I try something new nothing changes and I am back to where I started? Why does it feel like no one understands this feeling and everyone is literally against me? I feel like I have to literally pull a rope in order to get people to at least understand let alone be on my side for once instead of mobbing on me.
The staff there don't understand how emotionally frustrating that is as they have sticks up their asses and they abuse their power while not wanting to understand the side of anyone's story, they just jump on someone willy-nilly without taking a damn thing into account. Staff is supposed to be fair, not power hungry corrupt excuses of their title!
@Click This Cause no one understands what it is like to have the bad luck that I have and what originated from there in the first place. No one knows what it is like to have multiple dead rp's in a year and anything you try doesn't work. I defended someone who was being messed with there and apparently you don't have the whole story at all. I'm tired of having everyone against me or not understanding my side of things when they can simply ask. You just remind me of jumping on the side of bullies like everyone else.
@stone Stone, I am sorry but I have to hold it against them. For me, I am tired of being tossed aside and ghosted on over and over again in contrast to people that I have seen not face or run into these hurdles that I am constantly seeing as I deal with one hurdle but another pops up and it seems impossible to actually catch up and get to their success.
It's one of the reasons why I take RP's very seriously as I want to be valid as a potential partner but also as a person as I feel whenever I bring up something it is always swords and pitchforks and not like understanding or any sort of relatability. I feel like I have to always be on the defensive whenever I feel like I am not heard and I have to be offensive and continue to push my side until I feel like people understand me instead of feeling like people ganging up on me.
It's hard for me to see another human behind the screen as not selfish or cowardly for ghosting when I have it happen to me time and time again to the point I feel like I am just being toyed with on an emotional level when it comes to me wanting RP interest like everyone else but never get it at all.
I can't let go and move on from what seems is an injustice to me, ghosting is dishonorable and an injustice to me because they took the time to display interest but I feel like they need to own up to their initial interest and commitment needs to be upheld to me and my view Stone. It's like how can I when experience has been unkind to me time and time again and also other people?
@Kuro My plan is to make a RP thread as I want the same shot as everyone else. But the first year I was getting ghosters at the rate that felt at the time similar to the second site I roleplayed in and the rate there was absurd at the rate of “ghosting” I was getting and I got tired of it because I kept trying only to not feel like I have gone anywhere forward in ending this feeling.
Ghosting is wrong to me because I want the same effort as I put in into the IC's. 100 percent effort and I want 100 percent commitment and it is bad luck because it seems like no one likes the same things as I do apparently no matter how diverse I keep it.
@TGM Well you have that lack of perspective TGM. Your words are not helping at all. I feel I have been trying everything and been listening to advice but nothing changed or worked. And you are wrong.
And TGM...You sound so full of yourself and you obviously lack any sort of perspective all along. I say my side and you continue to prove you are against me without understanding me or my side at all as you jump of the plank and assume without reason.
I have been listening and yet past advice doesn't work and this new advice I doubt will as from what experience with it has shown me that it won't, maybe you try to open your mind and eyes.
@stone Stone, adding your weight to this is not a bad thing. For me, it is nice to have people that can understand how I feel. I tend to rp with partners and not groups because one I joined here just died too quickly for me.
I feel I have been trying for 3 years now since I joined here, it hasn't gotten any better. I feel like it got worse. My RP luck and even finding those of interest just seems as barren as a desert and as false as a mirage.
I feel no one is looking at the point that I have been continuing my efforts and trying to look with IC's I had before but I got them deleted because like the others, they got no interest no matter the bump or edit that I did to them.
For me, I just seen myself as the one getting ghosted and with no explanation as to why. Being left hanging on starting phases of RP's and even starting them only to never get an answer back from them is one of the reasons I fight so hard against ghosting because I feel in my perspective it is dishonorable and cowardly to do that to someone and to constantly having to put up with it no matter what advice or action you take and still not get a long-term RP partner is very demoralizing.
I asked myself this and it stems from me seeing everyone else, I have been so vexed with ghosting that I feel like no one can relate to me because as I try to fit in it is like the black sheep effect and I don't feel like I fit in interest wise with everyone else in contrast to seeing people who have it easier than myself. I know if you saw the prior post I don't need to explain more of dead rp's within a year of joining here.
To me, ghosters need to be accountable. To me they can own up to their interests and their claims that they made? They owe the effort also when they make their interest known. 100 interest means 100 commitment and i expect that.
@Blackmist16 Blackmist, you are not the only one to be pushed around. I have been called a retard, been lied to and even been taken advantage of too [not sexually].
I feel like life for me has been nothing but bad and with very few good points in between and even if then the good vibes are always yanked out from under me and back to where I started too.
I have a developmental disability known as Autism too and people have treated me differently because of it too. I just wonder how could I be happy if something I like doing is just filled with nothing but bad luck and my efforts aren't getting me anywhere to that good spot like so many others and actually stay there?
[color=ed1c24][b]Pen Name:[/b][/color] Alexander
[color=ed1c24][b]Aliases:[/b][/color] Kyoya, Terra.
[color=ed1c24][b]Birthday:[/b][/color] September 1
[color=ed1c24][b]Ethnicity:[/b][/color] African-American.
[color=ed1c24][b]Ancestry:[/b][/color] English, Irish, African.
[color=fff200][b]Occupation(s)[/b][/color]: Part-Time Parking Event Staff, Student (school-year; part-time)
[color=fff200][b]Major:[/b][/color] Cinema and Screen Studies
[color=00aeef][b]Sources of Writing:[/b][/color] Laptop, Desktop [maybe in the future]
[color=00aeef][b]Years of Experience:[/b][/color] 10.
[color=00aeef][b]RP Level:[/b][/color] High-Casual to Low Advanced. It varies on mental state, knowledge, and time.
[color=00aeef][b]Commitment/Dedication Level:[/b][/color] [b]Very High.[/b]
[color=662d91]Personality:[/color] Nice, Shy [when not pushed], Introverted, Caring/Compassionate, Understanding, Friendly, Honest, Imaginative, Organized, Protective, Loyal, Stubborn, Determined, Opportunistic, Sarcastic, Obsessive (somewhat)
[color=662d91]Habits, Tics, and Quirks:[/color] Daydreaming, Repeating things [at times or when pushed/provoked] Fixated on thoughts, Autistic (Learning and processing information is affected)
[color=9e0b0f][u][b]Biggest RP Pet Peeve:[/b][/u][/color]
Ghosting, Whereabouts, Dishonesty.
Please be present and keep me updated from time to time. I'll do the same for you.
It's annoying when people become invisible or ignoring, miraculously appear out of nowhere, and complain, once they find a story canceled.
And be truthful in RP's and out of them.
[color=ec008c]Close Peeps:[/color] [@AngelBites15], [@Vampiretwilight], [@SilverRain], [@Polymorpheus] [RIP]
[color=00a651]Basic Comforts:[/color]
~ Primarily 1x1, since groups one time died on me quick
~ Mainly male OCs, though I'll take on a female role [npc].
~ CanonxOC, OCxOC & (sometimes) CanonxCanon. I can play various canons for both of the two.
~ MxF, FxF. I mostly do/lean into the dominant-role, depending on character and plot.
~ PM's more than threads [doesn't mean I am open to them], but stories with strong adult content belong in the PM's only.
~ Open to dark themes (drugs, abuse, etc.)
[color=004b80]Genres[/color] - Action, Adventure, Anime/Animation, Comedy, Drama[a bit], Family, Fantasy, Horror, Mystery, Romance, Sci-Fi, Superhero, Western, Fandom, Video Games
[color=003471]Themes -[/color] College/High School, Martial Arts, Medieval, Post-Apocalypse, Supernatural, Fantasy, Modern, Slice of Life, Futuristic [maybe]
[color=f9ad81]Music:[/color] '80s-'00s Heavy Metal/Rock/Rock and Roll,/Electronic-Dance, Pop, R&B, '90s-'00s Hip-Hop/Rap & Blues, Jazz, Country, Video Game OST's, Anime OST's.
<div style="white-space:pre-wrap;"><font color="#ed1c24"><span class="bb-b">Pen Name:</span></font> Alexander<br><font color="#ed1c24"><span class="bb-b">Aliases:</span></font> Kyoya, Terra.<br><font color="#ed1c24"><span class="bb-b">Birthday:</span></font> September 1<br><font color="#ed1c24"><span class="bb-b">Ethnicity:</span></font> African-American.<br><font color="#ed1c24"><span class="bb-b">Ancestry:</span></font> English, Irish, African.<br><br><font color="#fff200"><span class="bb-b">Occupation(s)</span></font>: Part-Time Parking Event Staff, Student (school-year; part-time)<br><font color="#fff200"><span class="bb-b">Major:</span></font> Cinema and Screen Studies<br><br><font color="#00aeef"><span class="bb-b">Sources of Writing:</span></font> Laptop, Desktop [maybe in the future] <br><font color="#00aeef"><span class="bb-b">Years of Experience:</span></font> 10.<br><font color="#00aeef"><span class="bb-b">RP Level:</span></font> High-Casual to Low Advanced. It varies on mental state, knowledge, and time.<br><font color="#00aeef"><span class="bb-b">Commitment/Dedication Level:</span></font> <span class="bb-b">Very High.</span><br><br><font color="#662d91">Personality:</font> Nice, Shy [when not pushed], Introverted, Caring/Compassionate, Understanding, Friendly, Honest, Imaginative, Organized, Protective, Loyal, Stubborn, Determined, Opportunistic, Sarcastic, Obsessive (somewhat)<br><font color="#662d91">Habits, Tics, and Quirks:</font> Daydreaming, Repeating things [at times or when pushed/provoked] Fixated on thoughts, Autistic (Learning and processing information is affected)<br> <br><font color="#9e0b0f"><span class="bb-u"><span class="bb-b">Biggest RP Pet Peeve:</span></span></font> <br>Ghosting, Whereabouts, Dishonesty.<br>Please be present and keep me updated from time to time. I'll do the same for you.<br>It's annoying when people become invisible or ignoring, miraculously appear out of nowhere, and complain, once they find a story canceled.<br>And be truthful in RP's and out of them. <br><br><font color="#ec008c">Close Peeps:</font> <a class="bb-mention" href="/users/angelbites15">@AngelBites15</a>, <a class="bb-mention" href="/users/vampiretwilight">@Vampiretwilight</a>, <a class="bb-mention" href="/users/silverrain">@SilverRain</a>, <a class="bb-mention" href="/users/polymorpheus">@Polymorpheus</a> [RIP]<br><br><font color="#00a651">Basic Comforts:</font><br>~ Primarily 1x1, since groups one time died on me quick<br>~ Mainly male OCs, though I'll take on a female role [npc]. <br>~ CanonxOC, OCxOC & (sometimes) CanonxCanon. I can play various canons for both of the two. <br>~ MxF, FxF. I mostly do/lean into the dominant-role, depending on character and plot. <br>~ PM's more than threads [doesn't mean I am open to them], but stories with strong adult content belong in the PM's only.<br>~ Open to dark themes (drugs, abuse, etc.) <br><br><font color="#004b80">Genres</font> - Action, Adventure, Anime/Animation, Comedy, Drama[a bit], Family, Fantasy, Horror, Mystery, Romance, Sci-Fi, Superhero, Western, Fandom, Video Games<br><font color="#003471">Themes -</font> College/High School, Martial Arts, Medieval, Post-Apocalypse, Supernatural, Fantasy, Modern, Slice of Life, Futuristic [maybe]<br><br><font color="#f9ad81">Music:</font> '80s-'00s Heavy Metal/Rock/Rock and Roll,/Electronic-Dance, Pop, R&B, '90s-'00s Hip-Hop/Rap & Blues, Jazz, Country, Video Game OST's, Anime OST's.</div>
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