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Current This link expires in two days, but if anyone is wondering what combined with writer's block has been occupying my time recently, I don't think this'll dox me: streamable.com/o13hsy
5 mos ago
"What is life if not a chance to make more regrets?" - YourMoonstone
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6 mos ago
"It's not my fault that god didn't make you guys in his image." - IBeatPandas (Twitch Streamer)
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6 mos ago
Finally back on my own computer.
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2 yrs ago
Honestly, a Trauma Center x Toyko Ghoul (with or without Code Lyoko in it) sounds like a phenomenal concept.
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"And how smart you are only determined which way you fall." - a dream I had once
"Court should be adjourned because the jury are fools, and the judge can't decipher his left from his right or his right from his wrong." - Streetlight Manifesto (The Hands That Thieve)
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No, it's just that I'm wondering if you're going to switch out Holydramon for Ulforce at some point or if you plan to have it go from Holydramon into Ulforce. While that's possible, I just need to know which is your plan for it.

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I did the account thing again ;-;
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Crystal gratefully took the medicine from the soldier who arrived and swallowed them immediately. She was still jittery, but just knowing that she'd be back to normal once they kicked in was enough to help her overcome most of her anxiety. Still, she was a bit embarrassed from how she was acting, and her wrist was hurting quite a lot. She looked towards the other girls and gave a slight bow of her head.

"I'm really, really sorry about worrying you all. I had to skip my meds yesterday, and obviously I left behind todays dose. I was terrified of them not having them here, and having to wait until we got to the school to take them. That combined with not having taken them yesterday was... well, you saw what it did. Thank you all so much for stopping me." She looked towards Chie specifically. "And thank you very much for getting the medicine and asking them to open the mess hall." She bowed her head further for a moment before straightening back up.

"I'll be okay. We can go eat whenever you girls are ready."
Crystal stopped as Rivka moved in front of her. Her breathing was erratic and quick, her eyes glanced at the door as she considered busting through it. Just as soon as the thought hit she felt a hand on her shoulder and jumped slightly, but the words the other girls spoke got to her. They were right. It was foolish to put herself in danger if there was a way not to. There was no reason to go to the furthest lengths when there might still be an easier way. She tried her best to calm her breathing, but it was difficult. She carefully stepped back and started back towards the bed.

"You're right." she said as she sat back down and breathed out heavily, trying to cope. "You're right. Hopefully they'll have a decent stock of medicine here, but what if they don't? I..." she shook her head. No. She was supposed to be stronger than that. She'd learned coping mechanisms, and when she needed them she simply forgot them? She clenched her fist. Unacceptable. She closed her eyes and tried to take deep breaths. "I don't know if they'll be able to requisition what I need if they don't have it on base. But I have to hope they can, right?" She wasn't over the panic attack, really, but she was slowly regaining control of herself. She looked down at her wrist and winced. That was going to hurt later. She'd just have to hope things worked out.

"Sorry to worry you all like that." she managed to say, smiling somewhat grimly. She paused a moment with her eyes closed before continuing. Reaching into her pocket she brought out a tiny notepad and the very last part of a pencil, opening her eyes and writing down the names of her two medications. "If it's not to much to ask, could one of you find someone and ask them if they can get these?" She caught her breathing getting worse again and tried to calm it. "And some food for Rivka, and anyone else who's hungry, of course." She smiled again, slightly more genuine this time.
Crystal reached into her pocket, deftly pulled out a single stick of watermelon gum, and threw it at Selma. "...Gum. That's what I'll miss. Mixed Berry is hard to come by outside of Bellanum, so I always had to special order it, and I doubt they'll have the right kind near the school. Probably won't have the other best kinds, either."

She turned to Chie. "But you'll be back. Someday. Strong enough to protect him. That should be worth it." She opened her mouth to say something more but froze. "Oh... Oh shit..." The girl glanced around nervously, suddenly changing subjects. "How long do you think it'll be before we get to the school, or at least near a pharmacy? Who am I kidding, it'll take at least until we get there and then... a day or two? Shit. Shit!"

Her medicine hadn't even worn off yet and she was already on the verge of a panic attack just thinking about it. All pain in her arm and elsewhere was entirely forgotten in favor of overwhelming anxiety. What if she wasn't able to get her meds in time? She left them behind in her luggage, what were the chances that she could get them on time to take them? Nil, as far as she could figure. What if she got to the school and was such a wreck that they rejected her? She wouldn't be able to handle that, she'd probably... No, no. It would be okay. They accepted her knowing her problems, it wouldn't make sense to reject her once she got there just because of external circumstances preventing her from being on top of things. Still, the idea terrified her. The thoughts wouldn't go away. They'd kick her out, she'd be the biggest failure her family had ever had, her uncle would lose political sway and public support having a failure for a niece, she'd end up being a NEET, living off her family like a leech, going on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on until she had a panic attack so big it killed her, and then she'd be remembered as the most pathetic would-be Ars Magi of all time, she'd be famous, no, infamous, forever and ever and ever and ever and ever and ever and ever and her family would never live it down and they'd lose so much clout that they'd be shunned from society and her uncle would disown them and they'd end up on the streets for generations and considered horrible because of the fact that their genes were similar to those that created such a failure as her, leaving them to die out and be removed from the gene pool resulting in a true death for them all because of her and her fucking luck and dumbass bullshit to not grab her luggage with her medicine or at least to die in battle against the Nox to save the others because then she'd at least be a hero but no she had to turn tail and run and now everything was going to fall apart and she was hyperventilating and her pupils were dilated she could feel it and she was going to get kicked out and she was going to end up dying alone as a failure the likes of which had never been seen and she was bleeding she was bleeding her nails were dug into her wrist she was bleeding and she saw it and she didn't even feel it and she was bleeding and she was going to get rejected and she was going to ruin her life and her muscles were tensing so hard that her wound reopened slightly and she was bleeding and she was scared and she was watching her whole life fall apart before her eyes and she was going to be a failure and she needed her fucking meds she was going back for them now!

Crystal stood up shakily, prying her right hand from her left wrist, revealing five bleeding marks if anyone happened to look at it, blood running down her left hand and from her fingernails on her right hand. She put her good hand on her head and started slowly walking towards the door. It seemed that her medicine was wearing off. She didn't take her dose for today yet and, in order to ensure she had a dose for today, had skipped yesterday's pills. She was on the last two days of her prescription and the damn pharmacist wouldn't give her and extra two days worth of pills, only calling ahead to the school to make certain they had them available. They did, but that didn't help her now. She reached the door, started to open it and prepared to bolt out as fast as she could until she reached the underpass they had been accosted in.
Hello, I'd like to express my interest :) I tried the discord invite link from the interest check but it's expired. I like to at least lurk while I work on a sheet if possible, so I would be grateful to get a working invite!


Of course! Thanks for the interest, here's the discord: discord.gg/sNfTz2bx

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Whelp just exposed my alt account lol.
I don't mind either way on the discord. Also, I'm probably not gonna be able to fluff out a full post from "Stel stays in place trembling" so go ahead without me this round, if that's okay.
Crystal followed the group up into the refreshing air of the city. At least, it was refreshing after what had just happened. Once they were all in the car, she kept her gaze out the window towards the subway, until Captain Wei called her over. Some quick bandaging was applied and her hand was cleaned of blood which helped settle her mind. She quietly took inventory of what she had on her and what she had to leave behind. Her phone was still with her in her back pocket, though she wouldn't be surprised if it had been damaged when she rolled on it earlier. Her favorite headphones were gone, as were her sketchbook, though luckily it was unused so there was nothing of value lost. The most devastating blow, besides the headphones that is, had to have been the backpack. She had dozens of packs of gum in it, all varying flavors, all different tickets to different mindscapes and now it was like she had lost the keys to her own mind. Hopefully the school would be near a few candy stores, but she doubted it. Even if there were it wasn't likely that she'd get the really good stuff. She wistfully placed a hand on her right pocket where the last of her gum stash was; a pack of basic bubblegum and a pack of watermelon. Good for introductions but not for much else.

She was awoken from her reverie by the sound of something smacking against the glass window. There had been talking until now but it had just been drowned out by her racing thoughts. She glanced over to the source and saw Selma looking rather upset. Sounding rather upset, if her groan was any indication. This was followed by the markswoman for a moment until she burst into something about zombies? Crystal never was good at remembering languages, but that stood out to her. Finally, someone asked the important question.

"Those... masked people that attacked us. Do you... does the military know anything about them?" It was Chie who asked the captain, but it echoed Crystal's curiosity as well. Further, why were they after them? It made sense to go after recruits because they'd be easier than trained Ars Magi, but why capture them, as the figures seemed to want? They had to know that recruits wouldn't have any intel. Then there was the question of the one using, what appeared at least to be, magic. If it was an Ars Magi, what were they doing trying to go against the NOI, by extension of attacking Nova Lux recruits? And if it wasn't... Well, it wasn't too much of a stretch to think of Nox being used by a creature made of the stuff in a way similar to magic, was it? But she kept these thoughts to herself and planning to, even if she never learned the truth, to make a story about the concept.

She turned her attention towards Captain Wei to wait for her answer.
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