Sources of Writing: Laptop, Desktop [maybe in the future] Years of Experience: 10. RP Level: High-Casual to Low Advanced. It varies on mental state, knowledge, and time. Commitment/Dedication Level:Very High.
Personality: Nice, Shy [when not pushed], Introverted, Caring/Compassionate, Understanding, Friendly, Honest, Imaginative, Organized, Protective, Loyal, Stubborn, Determined, Opportunistic, Sarcastic, Obsessive (somewhat) Habits, Tics, and Quirks: Daydreaming, Repeating things [at times or when pushed/provoked] Fixated on thoughts, Autistic (Learning and processing information is affected)
Biggest RP Pet Peeve: Ghosting, Whereabouts, Dishonesty. Please be present and keep me updated from time to time. I'll do the same for you. It's annoying when people become invisible or ignoring, miraculously appear out of nowhere, and complain, once they find a story canceled. And be truthful in RP's and out of them.
Basic Comforts: ~ Primarily 1x1, since groups one time died on me quick ~ Mainly male OCs, though I'll take on a female role [npc]. ~ CanonxOC, OCxOC & (sometimes) CanonxCanon. I can play various canons for both of the two. ~ MxF, FxF. I mostly do/lean into the dominant-role, depending on character and plot. ~ PM's more than threads [doesn't mean I am open to them], but stories with strong adult content belong in the PM's only. ~ Open to dark themes (drugs, abuse, etc.)
Music: '80s-'00s Heavy Metal/Rock/Rock and Roll,/Electronic-Dance, Pop, R&B, '90s-'00s Hip-Hop/Rap & Blues, Jazz, Country, Video Game OST's, Anime OST's.
@Odin Well Odin we never did roleplay at any point together, at least from what I think back on right now so there is that as supposed neutral ground.
I feel I am owed the same chances as everyone as I feel everytime I have tried to garner interest for myself I get shafted with either little partner interest or ghosters as a whole. And the reason the interest checks were not found is because I had them deleted as no one was biting into them as I had been bumping them up still trying to find interest but none came and I stopped at some point fed up.
I feel people need to understand my side of things and have a open mind instead of being like everyone else before and mob on me and I push back all because I tire of having my side of things whenever I express I am unhappy about something to be mobbed on and then a desire to have it put back in like a chest or closet.
I just want my side to be seen with an open mind and I want the same chances as everyone else when it comes to RP threads and interest without feeling like being constantly passed up on and shafted time and time again, I wonder if no one gets that feeling and the emotions that spur from that.
And ghosters shouldn't be an indicate of me doing something wrong but also look at them too, they shouldn't get off scott-free at all either. They were the ones reaching out and expressed interest, I feel they are owed to hold up their end of the bargain when it comes to expressing and reaching out in a roleplay scope it seems.
@BangoSkank You don't have to use mine, but i figure to at least answer it.
Success for me as an Rper is when I know I can have long-term ones to actively enjoy and also having the interest for what I like at least to know my desires and opinions on things can be met with equal opportunity as wanting my effort to making a thread to pay off and feel that sense of accomplishment that something has gone either my way or said person's way for a change.
On Broken's words, I feel the destination is very important and getting to that matters more than the journey because of having plans die out in the planning phase just sucks. I just want to have successful long term RP's with people with the same interests as me and every time I try it is like literally impossible as I feel I am going up against much harsher odds than anyone else.
What “Feels” to me is what it is Ammo. To me, I feel no one gets these hurdles as for every advice I have taken in order to deal with the hurdle it either doesn't work or there is another hurdle behind that. In comparison to other people, it seems like to me no one else to me is seeing it from how I am seeing it.
And that crude idiom you said and stated, I don't think that is my fault at all when it is those who dishonorably ghosts people that has me feeling what I feel. And I am not a bad person to talk to at all, that I feel is completely false.
I feel my perspective is right to me at least. From my viewpoint I feel so strongly about it, it could also be the passion I have for wanting to roleplay and to be on the same playing field as everyone else because I feel like I have been shafted over and over again and anything I have done to not be shafted again hasn't worked out at all. Honestly I do want to change this bad RP luck of mine and change it for good and I feel the only way to do that is for people to understand my side of things without them literally want to stab me [in relation of the surrounded swords picture] and to feel like my voice matters and to be on that equal ground with everyone else and to have a fair shot with a partner instead of being passed up on and worst thing, ghosted on again.
@Odin Here's your answer. Well if everyone understood my viewpoint, it would solve me always ending up a target in the negative feelings for me when it comes to me stating something. I would like to be on equals grounds of relatability with other people as a whole. Also something to change to make people stop ghosting me as it is dishonorable and cowardly to do that to someone as you hyped up their interest only to leave them hanging.
On a personal level, ghosting needs to be stop and likely punished in some way to dis-encourage it as I feel once you make interest for a RP known to someone I expect 100 percent commitment to it unless you state that you are dropping off respectfully or will be busy.
And never assume I was even looking for pity, I am looking to be understood with what I feel coupled along with what I say but every single time I do I get met with swords and pitchforks from people as it feels like everyone is against me for even speaking out about something that is clearly upsetting me.
@Ammokkx It didn't feel like you were "genuine" on that help attempt as it sure felt like a attack on me and my stance on things from my viewpoint as you came off to me like anyone else, they didn't understand my viewpoint and came off rather rudely.
I feel it is more of my partners than myself because of them always ghosting and poofing off on me without any sort of warning or heads up whatsoever. I do feel like a target whenever I speak up on something that frustrates me as I expect I have to defend myself against a mob mentality and I got to fight against everyone else just to feel like I am getting through to people or even understood.
I don't see how what I am doing is wrong in retrospect when I look at it, I am doing my hardest to even get interest and any advice hasn't worked or stuck as effective or long as I expect you know? I feel like this “olive branch” could be like those other times and just filled with empty promises of things getting better for me when my luck and experience has shown me completely different. Like how am I supposed to trust the advice when the advice before failed? It's like I always have to fight for my voice and side to be even remotely heard I feel most times.
And I will be here @Ammokkx regardless of what you say.
@Celaira It don't seem like it whenever it seems more of a bum rush on me instead of actually understanding my side to things without wanting to hide it right away.
@yoshua171 I have been roleplaying for about a decade now but the past 3-5 years is when from the first site i had done RP's with was when my luck started to go bad and I feel it still is. From one site 85 dead in a year of joining that before it peaked at 95 and left there. Joined here and got 45 dead rp's within a year but that number is at 63 and a third site where i got 20 dead there. Thought to catch you up and answer your question but overall I'm tired of feeling like I am made to feel like my side of things don't matter at all and anything i done hasn't worked to what i was told and nothing really sticking for me.
@Tuujaimaa Well like you said it is a fair question to ask. My answer and reply to you is that I don't think my viewpoint is incorrect based on the experiences I had and feel like I need to defend myself from people that never gone through the pain to me of having the amount of RP's dead within a year at all.
I feel like I have to constantly fight for my side to be heard without feeling like I am valid to feel what I feel or say what I say without past experiences of people wanting to jump on me about it and then bury it/hide it like some sort of skeleton from the closet that they don't want out.
[color=ed1c24][b]Pen Name:[/b][/color] Alexander
[color=ed1c24][b]Aliases:[/b][/color] Kyoya, Terra.
[color=ed1c24][b]Birthday:[/b][/color] September 1
[color=ed1c24][b]Ethnicity:[/b][/color] African-American.
[color=ed1c24][b]Ancestry:[/b][/color] English, Irish, African.
[color=fff200][b]Occupation(s)[/b][/color]: Part-Time Parking Event Staff, Student (school-year; part-time)
[color=fff200][b]Major:[/b][/color] Cinema and Screen Studies
[color=00aeef][b]Sources of Writing:[/b][/color] Laptop, Desktop [maybe in the future]
[color=00aeef][b]Years of Experience:[/b][/color] 10.
[color=00aeef][b]RP Level:[/b][/color] High-Casual to Low Advanced. It varies on mental state, knowledge, and time.
[color=00aeef][b]Commitment/Dedication Level:[/b][/color] [b]Very High.[/b]
[color=662d91]Personality:[/color] Nice, Shy [when not pushed], Introverted, Caring/Compassionate, Understanding, Friendly, Honest, Imaginative, Organized, Protective, Loyal, Stubborn, Determined, Opportunistic, Sarcastic, Obsessive (somewhat)
[color=662d91]Habits, Tics, and Quirks:[/color] Daydreaming, Repeating things [at times or when pushed/provoked] Fixated on thoughts, Autistic (Learning and processing information is affected)
[color=9e0b0f][u][b]Biggest RP Pet Peeve:[/b][/u][/color]
Ghosting, Whereabouts, Dishonesty.
Please be present and keep me updated from time to time. I'll do the same for you.
It's annoying when people become invisible or ignoring, miraculously appear out of nowhere, and complain, once they find a story canceled.
And be truthful in RP's and out of them.
[color=ec008c]Close Peeps:[/color] [@AngelBites15], [@Vampiretwilight], [@SilverRain], [@Polymorpheus] [RIP]
[color=00a651]Basic Comforts:[/color]
~ Primarily 1x1, since groups one time died on me quick
~ Mainly male OCs, though I'll take on a female role [npc].
~ CanonxOC, OCxOC & (sometimes) CanonxCanon. I can play various canons for both of the two.
~ MxF, FxF. I mostly do/lean into the dominant-role, depending on character and plot.
~ PM's more than threads [doesn't mean I am open to them], but stories with strong adult content belong in the PM's only.
~ Open to dark themes (drugs, abuse, etc.)
[color=004b80]Genres[/color] - Action, Adventure, Anime/Animation, Comedy, Drama[a bit], Family, Fantasy, Horror, Mystery, Romance, Sci-Fi, Superhero, Western, Fandom, Video Games
[color=003471]Themes -[/color] College/High School, Martial Arts, Medieval, Post-Apocalypse, Supernatural, Fantasy, Modern, Slice of Life, Futuristic [maybe]
[color=f9ad81]Music:[/color] '80s-'00s Heavy Metal/Rock/Rock and Roll,/Electronic-Dance, Pop, R&B, '90s-'00s Hip-Hop/Rap & Blues, Jazz, Country, Video Game OST's, Anime OST's.
<div style="white-space:pre-wrap;"><font color="#ed1c24"><span class="bb-b">Pen Name:</span></font> Alexander<br><font color="#ed1c24"><span class="bb-b">Aliases:</span></font> Kyoya, Terra.<br><font color="#ed1c24"><span class="bb-b">Birthday:</span></font> September 1<br><font color="#ed1c24"><span class="bb-b">Ethnicity:</span></font> African-American.<br><font color="#ed1c24"><span class="bb-b">Ancestry:</span></font> English, Irish, African.<br><br><font color="#fff200"><span class="bb-b">Occupation(s)</span></font>: Part-Time Parking Event Staff, Student (school-year; part-time)<br><font color="#fff200"><span class="bb-b">Major:</span></font> Cinema and Screen Studies<br><br><font color="#00aeef"><span class="bb-b">Sources of Writing:</span></font> Laptop, Desktop [maybe in the future] <br><font color="#00aeef"><span class="bb-b">Years of Experience:</span></font> 10.<br><font color="#00aeef"><span class="bb-b">RP Level:</span></font> High-Casual to Low Advanced. It varies on mental state, knowledge, and time.<br><font color="#00aeef"><span class="bb-b">Commitment/Dedication Level:</span></font> <span class="bb-b">Very High.</span><br><br><font color="#662d91">Personality:</font> Nice, Shy [when not pushed], Introverted, Caring/Compassionate, Understanding, Friendly, Honest, Imaginative, Organized, Protective, Loyal, Stubborn, Determined, Opportunistic, Sarcastic, Obsessive (somewhat)<br><font color="#662d91">Habits, Tics, and Quirks:</font> Daydreaming, Repeating things [at times or when pushed/provoked] Fixated on thoughts, Autistic (Learning and processing information is affected)<br> <br><font color="#9e0b0f"><span class="bb-u"><span class="bb-b">Biggest RP Pet Peeve:</span></span></font> <br>Ghosting, Whereabouts, Dishonesty.<br>Please be present and keep me updated from time to time. I'll do the same for you.<br>It's annoying when people become invisible or ignoring, miraculously appear out of nowhere, and complain, once they find a story canceled.<br>And be truthful in RP's and out of them. <br><br><font color="#ec008c">Close Peeps:</font> <a class="bb-mention" href="/users/angelbites15">@AngelBites15</a>, <a class="bb-mention" href="/users/vampiretwilight">@Vampiretwilight</a>, <a class="bb-mention" href="/users/silverrain">@SilverRain</a>, <a class="bb-mention" href="/users/polymorpheus">@Polymorpheus</a> [RIP]<br><br><font color="#00a651">Basic Comforts:</font><br>~ Primarily 1x1, since groups one time died on me quick<br>~ Mainly male OCs, though I'll take on a female role [npc]. <br>~ CanonxOC, OCxOC & (sometimes) CanonxCanon. I can play various canons for both of the two. <br>~ MxF, FxF. I mostly do/lean into the dominant-role, depending on character and plot. <br>~ PM's more than threads [doesn't mean I am open to them], but stories with strong adult content belong in the PM's only.<br>~ Open to dark themes (drugs, abuse, etc.) <br><br><font color="#004b80">Genres</font> - Action, Adventure, Anime/Animation, Comedy, Drama[a bit], Family, Fantasy, Horror, Mystery, Romance, Sci-Fi, Superhero, Western, Fandom, Video Games<br><font color="#003471">Themes -</font> College/High School, Martial Arts, Medieval, Post-Apocalypse, Supernatural, Fantasy, Modern, Slice of Life, Futuristic [maybe]<br><br><font color="#f9ad81">Music:</font> '80s-'00s Heavy Metal/Rock/Rock and Roll,/Electronic-Dance, Pop, R&B, '90s-'00s Hip-Hop/Rap & Blues, Jazz, Country, Video Game OST's, Anime OST's.</div>