E L I A S & A L E J A N D R O
Alejandro led the way down the hall away from the parlor, eyes discreetly scanning the corridors for any passerby. Most of the people they passed were part of the palace staff, and they paid him and Elias no attention as they hurried about. Alejandro was grateful that they didnât run into anyone else; it would not be too terribly difficult to send them on their way to the parlor, of course, but it was still a bit of a hassle.
The library was one of the less well-known ones, located in the eastern wing of the palace. From his previous visits to the palace, Alejandro knew that this library was the one with materials regarding anything about the natural world, and that it happened to be one of Leaâs personal favorites. There were encyclopedias on geology, biology, bathymetry and oceanology, environmental and/or earth science, and the like, as well as animal husbandry guides and books filled with gorgeous illustrations. Perhaps the most interesting feature of the library was, however, the animal displays. The moose display was towards the back of the library, but Alejandro pulled Elias into one of the secluded reading rooms. A quick glance around the room showed that it was empty; hopefully, they would have some privacy in there.
Alejandro turned to the other prince. âI do apologize for not bringing you to the moose display immediately,â he began, laughing lightly, âbut I believe that this location will provide more...privacy.â A delicate pause. âElias, I-I know you have something to say. Whatever it is, I will hear it.â There was a noticeable shift in the quality of Alejandroâs voice; gone was all the light teasing and playful mischief. Instead, he was about as serious as he ever got, bringing his eyes up to meet Eliasâ.
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It felt odd, wearing pants, but at the same time that he wasnât used to wearing them he also was so itâŠwas a confusing matter nonetheless. Not that it felt uncomfortable, per sĂ©, just that it felt
wrong, confining everything in a much-too-small space and expecting it all to be happy about it.
I wouldnât be comfortable cooped up in a very tiny space either, Elias thought grumpily, but dismissed the thought as they entered the library.
It was impressive for sure, though he was fairly certain he caught the sight of antlers in the back before he was dragged into another room, a reading room.
He gave at Alejandro glare as he brought up the moose again, before sighing. Elias crossed his arms over his chest, legs adjusting to an âat easeâ stance. He shook his head. âNo, not really,â he said.
It wasnât entirely true of course. There was a lot he wanted to say, actually, but none of it would come out right or work or really do much. They had a fling, that was it.
âIt was a fling, I need to accept that,â he said. âDafni didnât mean anything by her remark, mind you. Sure, I was a little sad when you were goneâhell, I
missed youâand more than just theââ Elias looked around, then lowered his voice. âAnd more than just the sex, mind you.â He raised his voice to a normal speaking volume. âI like you. Youâre a good person, a good friend, and a wonderful lover, and I miss you. You were right. It never would work out between us. Castilya would have a heart attack and I doubt the alliance would hold. The secrecy would kill us.â
He sighed, relaxing his stance. For a moment, there was a bit of that nineteen-year-old romantic back in his body as he sat and allowed himself to relax some. âBut I look at you and I see the parts of me I lost over the years. I see the flirtatious side, I see laughter, I see smiles, I see someone who isnât afraid to hold nothing back. I look at you, I see the old me, and it
kills me. Alejandro, back then I thought I loved you, and maybe I did, and maybe I still do. But seeing the old meâŠâ Elias shook his head slowly. âMakes me miss him.â
He exhaled, hanging his head as he braced his arms on his legs and tapped his fingertips together between his knees. âThatâs all I want. I want to be myself again, to not be constantly on-guard, to not be so angry, so bitter, so alone. I used to be able to take a joke like Elimoose. Hell, back then I would have embraced it. My father is proud of how âmatureâ I have become. I havenât had a lover in four years. Iâm cold. Iâm nothing but a soldier. Commander Supreme indeed.â
Elias shook his head. âI have nothing to say to you about being angry with your or blaming you or hating you, because I donât. None of that is true. I just hate the me that I became when you went away.â
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Alejandro let out a breath and ran a hand through his hair.
You give me far too much credit, Prince Elias, he thought to himself.
A good person
? Maybe, five years ago. But not so much anymore, I would imagine.Oh, it wasnât that he had done anything particularly atrocious or cruel, specifically, but five years was a considerable amount of time when one was as young as he and Elias were.
On the surface, he was still the same Alejandro-what was it that Rhia had said? Noisy, vibrant, and bright. Anyone with even half a brain cell could see that, well, thatâs what he was. Noisy, vibrant, and bright, with his teasing grins and loud florals and sparkly accessories.
Mmm. Well, I truly am quite fond of sparkles and floral print, but that is beside the point. Alejandro was the very definition of âoutrageousâ, yes, but just as Mai had her
gorgeous matte lipsticks and high heels, Alejandro had his outrageousness. Instead of showing no emotion to hide his true feelings, Alejandro went the opposite way-an
excess of emotion, to conceal what he did not wish for others to see.
After all, most people didnât expect a person covered in head to toe with sheer silks and bright flowers and an overabundance of sparkly baubles to be quite so...ruthless.
Most do not understand the meaning of the word âruthlessâ, Alejandro reflected.
They think it means cruel, or ambitious, or cunning, or a combination of all three. I do not believe that itâs about being cruel or ambitious. Itâs about seeing the bright, clear line that leads from point A to point B; motive to means, beginning to end. Itâs about seeing that line and not caring about anything but the perfection
of the solution, of that line.At Eliasâ comment about sex, Alejandro had to suppress a grimace. It wasnât that the sex
wasnât good-it had been fantastic, actually-but now that Alejandro knew himself a little better, he was quite aware that his intentions hadnât exactly been the most honorable, back then. The years between his mother finding him with Eduardo and his trip to PĂłlemos had been...rocky, to say the least. Although Portaya, and Castilya as a whole, was growing more accepting with each passing year, most of the people Alejandro lived and worked with were still quite conservative about such matters. In the two years between being separated from Eduardo and meeting Elias, Alejandro had taken every opportunity he could get toâŠ
experiment, as much as he could, without being caught.
It had been stupid, yes. Unbelievably so. But after years of being led to believe that he was some sort of
abomination, Alejandro had been sick and tired of feeling so ashamed for what he was. The numerous encounters that heâd had seemed to numb the pain and loneliness, for awhile. And when Elias had so openly expressed his interest-well, who was Alejandro to refuse?
Sometimes, he wondered whether or not he would have agreed to, er, a
relationship of sorts with someone else-one of Eliasâ friends, for instance-while he had been in PĂłlemos, if they had gotten to him first. Alejandro was strongly inclined to believe that the answer was yes. It didnât matter that Alejandro had grown to like Elias as a person; the night that they were intimate for the first time, Alejandro had barely known the other prince. And yet he had still ended up spending the night (and a good part of the morning, too) in his rooms.
Alejandro nodded, slowly. He wasnât sure that there was very much he could say, in this situation; those years were far behind them, now. Neither of them were the same people they had been five years ago. âFor what itâs worth, Elias, I miss you, too.â He paused. âFive years is a long time. I understand.â
He took a step back and studied Elias for a moment. âIâm glad you are here,â he said, finally. âI think Aciras will do you some good.â
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Elias chuffed. âThatâs it? No, âit is a good thing we parted ways because this is not the man I liked before,â or even perhaps a soul-crushing âI never loved you, only ever lusted for you?ââ He shook his head. âGods, how far we have come indeed.â
He sighed. âDafni thinks so as well. Me, I am not so sure. As much of a bastard Stefanos is, he is still my brother, and the amount of incompetence shown by our guards would make anyone planning to kill him strike now, while I am not there to protect him.â
He ran a hand through his hair and shook his head. It was probably best he didnât think like that right now. âNo matter. Right now this is supposed to be a bit of a party, no? If we stay away much longer, I fear they may think we are up to something, and for the sake of your reputation it may be best that we not let that happen.â
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Alejandro stayed silent at Eliasâ response. He would have told him that it wasnât true, that part of him
did love him, and still did-but no, that would not be fair to Elias. Alejandro wasnât going to lie to him, or tell him half-truths. Elias deserved more than that. Alejandro himself wasnât completely certain what exactly it had been, five years ago; perhaps it could have been love, if he didnât have to go back to Castilya and if Eliasâ brother was not such an asshole. Perhaps. But now? Alejandro didnât know.
Alejandro let out a puff of air. If they had been in this same situation five years ago, during that single month in PĂłlemos, Alejandro would have already been moving towards Elias, leaning in for a kiss.
But that was five years ago.
âForget about that, for now,â Alejandro said, softly.
He should not put so much faith in his brother. Stefanos, if anything, is a power-hungry dictator. Or, he would be, if he were king. But Elias is either blind to his faults because they are brothers, or tolerates these faults for the same reason. I suspect that it is a combination of both.âI have a question,â he began, carefully. âIs there a reason why Stefanos decided not to come to Aciras? Lea would have invited him, no?â
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Elias shook his head. âHe is the heir. He has a lot more to worry about than making an appearance at a party or a wedding. An heir should not be able to reasonably get away with abandoning their people and shirking responsibilities to their governments for two-three months. Believe meâwe are much better off without him here, even if it means PĂłlemos risks suffering because I am not there to question him.â
He shook his head. âYouâve met my brother. You know how he is. At worst he is going to get things he wants done without me there to try to stop him and gain the Councilâs favor to oppose him. Without me there, the Council will side with him because he is future king and they would rather get on his good side. In Agrios I stand as the only barrier between his wishes for this country and what is actually good for the people.â
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Alejandro raised an eyebrow. There were, of course, heirs that were present in Aciras-Edwin Drakewine, for example, or Leonard Ford, not to mention Venera-but Alejandro supposed that Stefanos had his reasons.
If I were to hazard a guess, I would agree with Eliasâ assessment, he thought to himself.
It does seem like something Stefanos would do.Still, though. That left him with another question-âIf you think Stefanos is going to do what you say he will, why are you here, then?â Alejandro asked casually, an expression of mild curiosity flickering over his features.
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Elias sighed and gave him a look. âThe same reason half of these people are playing nice with each other. Politics. My brother the schmooze isnât here to play them, so someone with more influence than Dafni has to. BesidesâŠâ He felt his back straighten some as he forced himself into something resembling at ease. âIâm not just playing them here, on an international scale. Iâm playing them at home, too. Doing this business here is going to hopefully make me look better at home. âSee,
I play nice with foreign dignitaries that we may not agree with.
I manage to keep the peace.ââ
He exhaled, back relaxing and head lowering slightly. âI donât want to play their games anymore. Iâm so tired. But the moment I attempt to turn off the soldier is the moment Iâm going to need it again.â
Elias looked at Alejandro with a silent âthank youâ in his eyes. âThank you for letting me unload this on you. Thereâs no one else I trust and no one else who understands what Stefanos is like. Dafni doesnât even see half of what I see, else sheâd be more vocal in court about it.â
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Alejandro shrugged nonchalantly. âFair enough.â He gave Elias a long, assessing look, and hesitated, his mouth strangely dry. âDespite what you may think, I do consider you a friend, Prince Elias. A very good friend.â He paused, glancing up at Eliasâ dark eyes. âPerhaps we could have been something more, but it seems like the world has other plans for us.â
Alejandro chuckled, then, shaking his head to himself. âThough if youâre here to âplay niceâ with foreign dignitaries, you may want to consider frowning...less.â He threw a cheeky grin over his shoulder as he strode towards the door, pausing as he placed a hand on the doorknob. âWell, are you coming? I wasnât lying when I said there was a stuffed moose in this library, you know.â
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Elias looked at Alejandro carefully. This was an unusual admission for the blond, someone who had never been keen on expressing how he really felt at all. He found himself nodding appreciatively. âMaybe we could have been.â
Maybe I am in love with a time, with the idea of you, and not you yourself, he thought.
You deserve better.He rolled his eyes. âSmiling does not exactly fit a soldier.â He sighed. âBut I see your point. Dafni has the same position, same belief. It is good she is here and Stefanos is not if we want me to attempt smiling more again.â
However, the mention of the moose made him glare at Alejandro, but forced himself to follow along. âThat moose thing will never die now will it?â
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Alejandro chuckled at Eliasâ words. âYouâre too serious. If youâre here to play nice, I would suggest getting rid of the whole âgrumpy soldierâ look.â
He led the way to the moose, grinning mischievously. âHere it is,â he said, gesturing towards the moose display. It was mounted on a low platform, head lifted towards the ceiling. Alejandro gave Elias a quick once-over. âMmm. Now, if this moose had been
frowning, I dare say it would have been a perfect match.â
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Elias frowned. âIt is not intentionally aâŠgrumpy soldier, justâŠa soldier who is very good at his job, very focused on his job. A professional soldier. A focused soldier.â
He stared at the moose, then gave Alejandro a look at his frowning remark. Still, he looked at the moose again and, dare he say it, frowned. âMoose are bigger than I thought if this is lifesize.â
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Alejandro gave Elias a sidelong glance, rolling his eyes playfully. âSo a grumpy soldier, then,â he said, his voice light and teasing. âAnd yes, I have been told that they can be quite intimidating. Princess Lea says that they are known to traipse freely through some of the cities in the northern parts of Aciras.â Alejandro shrugged nonchalantly. âI believe her.â
Alejandro glanced at the time, briefly. âWe should be heading back soon, I suppose. I promised Lea that I would let her show me her latest makeup obsession.â Alejandro grinned at Elias. âSomething that would bore you to death, no doubt.â
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Elias sighed, shaking his head. â
Asshole,â he murmured in PĂłlemesian. He sighed, but nodded. âYou are right. If we spend too much time alone, Dafni may get the wrong impression, and Iâd hate to ruin your reputation right off the bat.â
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Alejandro paid no heed to the muttered insult, instead flashing Elias a winning smile. âHow considerate of you,â he teased, before turning on his heel and heading back towards the door that they entered from. âCome on, Prince Elias. Iâll lead the way.â
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Elias rolled his eyes but followed his old friend away from the moose sculpture and out of the library. He sat beside Dafni once more once in the parlor again, offering her a small smile.
(Collab between @Morningstar1399 and @ayzrules)